Once upon a time ( Rachel and Leah)

chapter 9

Eight years later.....

Rachel's pov.....

A lot had changed in the eight years that had passed.
Leah had two more children, adding to five in total, Abigail, Issac, Judah, Asher, and David.

Jacob had started his own business, which was very successful.

I was as hard-working as always, faithful to my husband and my family but Buren.....

It had been over nine years since I was married to Jacob but remained childless.

People began to talk, saying every ewe thing they would think of.
I knew the problem was not with Jacob but with me because Jacob got Leah pregnant five times and it was always successful.

Doctors kept calming nothing was wrong with me, every time I went for a test.

I didn't know why nature was punishing me that way, growing up, I was the nicest person, so why did life choose to punish me?
Even though my family and my friends kept telling me God's time was the best, at that point, God's time felt like forever and I was getting fed up.

" Sweetheart?" Jacob who was seating next to me called," what's wrong?"

I wiped my tears slowly and cooked up a smile, as I glanced at him.

" Nothing, am fine, "I answered still forcing a smile.

" You know you can't lie to me,"
Hearing those words, tears could no longer hold back, I sobbed painfully, falling on his lap.

" Why has God decided to cause me so much pain, don't I worship him? Don't I pay my offerings and tithes? don't I pray? don't I help the poor? why would he allow me to suffer like this?" I gloomily cried, feeling neglected.

" Where is all this coming from?" He stupidly asked.

" Can't you see am Buren?" I stormed forcing myself out of his embrace," it's been nine years now without a child, doesn't that bother you,"

" Are you going to cry about the same issue every day?" He asked exasperated sighing.

" When an elephant dies, the news that is talked about is its death, so stop holding my mouth," I answered glaring at him with tears in my eyes.

" But that doesn't mean the village will discuss the same issue forever," he muted to himself but I heard.

" Babe people are talking me and it's getting to me, do you know the embarrassment that I feel?" I cried bowing my head," what did I do to God to deserve such a thing, I have prayed, fasted, and am now getting tired,"

" He knows best and at his right time, he will give you children," he comforted, pulling me in an embrace, but I forced myself out to look at his face.

" Easy for you to say. ..., you have five children with Leah but me on the other hand, am an embarrassment to this family, you can't understand how that makes me feel,"

Hardly had Jacob said a word, Leah walked in.

" Rachel? What's wrong?" She worried, sitting next to us.
" I heard your weeping from outside,"

I was too emotional to answer, so I continued sobbing loudly.

" My husband, please say something, should I be worried?" She asked staring at Jacob.

" It's nothing serious, Rachel is just been paranoid," He answered rolling his eyes in annoyance.

" I'm not taking that as an answer, she is weeping painfully and you say it's nothing," she refused to believe him," Rachel please speak to me,"
She demanded as I was buried in Jacob's arms.

" Leah," I cried getting up, "am Buren,"

Immediately after I said that I could see dismay all over her face.

" Is this when you have noticed?" She sassed disappointment sounding all over her voice.

Hearing her say that, made me cry louder, like a baby who had just been teased.

" Rachel, I always tell you, God himself at his right time will give you a child," she comforted, pulling me to her.

" When Leah? When?"

" People go through worse situations, some in your situation have stayed 20,40 years without children, that should help you look at yourself as a bright side," she advised, but to me, that felt like rubbing salt on my wounds.

" No one can understand how I feel," I cried getting up.
I immediately ran to my room and made sure to lock my door so that I could cry freely without disturbance.

A person who was not in my situation could say anything they wanted and urge me to stop acting like a child because they didn't know how I was feeling.
The embarrassment of having to face other women my age with their children, when I didn't have my own, no one who was not going through what I was going through could understand me, especially my sister.

Life ever-changing was my everyday prayer.

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