Torn

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Dani's POV

I rolled and tumbled all night long. I could not stop thanking of what I was going to do.  I finally got up at 9 o’clock and went to the kitchen to get something to drink, while I was getting something Rose walked in.

“Hey girly.” She said with a huge smile on her face. 

“Hey.” I said

“Dani what’s wrong.” Rose asked looking at me

“Nothing.” I said looking away

“Danielle I’m your best friend I know when something is wrong with you, now tell me what it is or I’m going to force it out of you.” she said walking over to me

“Okay something is wrong but you can’t help me with it, no one can.” I said walking to my room, and shutting the door. 

“DANIELLE RAY MALONE!” She yelled hitting the door, after a few minutes she stopped

I changed in to some sweat pants and a tank top with a hoodie over top of it. I grabbed my cell phone and keys and walked out. Rose was now setting in the living room she stood up when I walked in.

“I’m going out I will be back in a few hours.” I said 

“Were are you going?” she asked with worry in her voice

“No were special I just need time to thank about stuff I will be back later. If you need me I have my phone just text.” I said walking out the house

I didn’t have to tell here were I was headed. I only go to one place when something is really upsetting me, and that’s my grandpa’s grave, and she knows this. 

I walked down the stairs and to my car. When I got in the car I took a deep breath. After a few seconds I turned the car on and headed to the grave yard.

When I got there I pulled the car to a stop and cut it off.

“You can do this Dani.” I said to my self

It’s always so hard coming here. He was the only person I could talk to and he would not judge me for it. Every time I need someone to talk to or just need time to my self I always come here and talked with him. I know he is not there but I just felt close to him when ever I was here, like he could hear me.

 I took one last deep breath to get my self together and got out the car, the wind hitting me in the face. It was so peaceful and relaxing out here. I started walking up the hill. 

When I got to his grave I set down. I started running my finger over his name.

“Hey papa.” I said looking up at the clear blue sky

“I wish you were here I could really use your help right about now. I just don’t know what to do. I have no one to talk to.” I said as I started to pick the grass

“Mom and dad are out the country, Rose will most likely hate me, and grandma will just tell me to fallow my heart. I can’t fallow that because it doesn’t know what it wants.” I took a deep breath

“I wish you were here you always knew when something was wrong and what to say to help me through it, no matter how horrible the situation was.” I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.

“I just don’t know what to do papa. You remember Saxon the guy that used to come over with me all the time. Will I have liked him for a long time now, we have been through so much together. He kissed me and basically told me he liked me too, but he is a player and has hurt me one time already, and I don’t want that to happen again. Then there is Jax. He is Rose’s big brother, I don’t know what it is about him but it just feels right whenever he is around. He has everything you could ask for in a guy. He is cute sweet with a side of bad boy. I just don’t know what to do. If I pick Saxon I have a chance of him hurting me and leaving like last time, and I don’t know if I can do that again. Then if I pick Jax, Rose could get mad and hate me. I don’t want to lose her or him. She is my best friend, she helped me through a lot, like losing Saxon, you, and mom and dad always being gone, and I don’t want to lose Jax he has been a good friend and we always have so much fun together, I would hate to lose all that and I thank I like Jax more than Saxon, and I don’t know if that’s good or bad.” I said in full tears now