Say My Name [ ZhanYi ]

10

"If I'm not yearning for him, what's keep thinking about him everyday 24/7 is called?"

Yibo POV

It have been exactly three days since he started ignoring me and yet he didn't bother to even message me. I know I said that I don't care, but I was actually behind getting upset about the fact he was ignoring me. It wasn't my entire fault either way, he shouldn't keep ignoring me like it was entirely mine. I was getting bored by staying in middle four walls for too long so I thought of going out. Besides it's almost evening. But going out would end me up exactly in front of that coffee shop by my foot was unexpected. I sighed and was about to turn away when a sudden thing caught my eyes. I widened my eyes realising it was non other than Zhan ge himself. He was wearing his usual working attire and doing his servings and taking orders as usual. So he came right after making me loose hope?

I ignored the sudden pang in my heart and realised it was almost time he come out. He came out and when his eyes caught my figure, his glance became hard nearly enough for me flinch. He took fast steps towards me as I stayed there like I was stuck to the road.

"Why are you here?'' he asked with a very annoyed tone. I smiled despite how he talked and replied, '' Weren't I have been coming like this since before?'' He sighed and mumbled 'Yeah that's the problem'   but it was heard by me and clear.

"By the way why didn't you came yesterday?'' I asked wanting to keep the conversation but he doesn't seem as if he wants. What made you hate me so much Ge?

"Can you stop?'' He said almost shooting daggers at me with his eyes.
"Stop what?'' 
"Everything? Like why are you following me? don't you think its already weird enough? You even found my phone number like how the hell even? It's almost like your stalking me and its creeping the shit out of me. I don't need anyone following me every single day and plus annoying me with raining's of messages. I was living peacefully before you intruded in to my life destroying the tranquillity I had. Can you fuck off?''

When he stopped talking—I was already in the verge of tears which were threatening to fall in any minute. I looked at him and I knew I looked so pathetic and vulnerable right now but I cant help it, I couldn't. Once again I was speechless in front of him—unable to confront myself, defend myself. He kept looking at me as if he was waiting for my response but eventually he shook his head in disappointment and said, "You know I seriously hate when people keep stalking someone. They are so selfish like can't they think how the other person even feels?" before walking away.

I hated how speechless I get in front of him. As if my voice was locked up far away—only the voices inside me was talking. When I got my legs working, I moved away from there and when I realised I was walking no running back to my house—my face was already wet from unwanted tears. Honestly I wanted to ask myself why am I even crying but would it even reply?

Was I hurt because of the way he thought of me?

Was I hurt because he said to not see him again?

At this point I can't even understand why either so I let it be. Besides knowing what's the reason isn't going to help either. I was never been this glad when I saw my house in front of me. I wasted no time barging in and running towards my room—happy that dad was not home yet.

If I keep bawling my eyes out like this would it be any avail? This is why I hate about myself. I always get too attached with emotions to the point where I would loose the control whether how to act. I wanted nothing more other than to go over back and ask him why. But I doubted if I had enough courage—how can I? When he thinks me as a intruder who came into his life and bothers the hell out of him.

It was clearly my fault so I should probably not bother him anymore. It's not that everyone is destined to have what they want. My thoughts was interrupted when my phone started ringing. I answered it when I saw it was my one and only friend I managed to make back there. But that call only made me more disappointed than I already was. I was expecting Jackson to come today and he even promised to stay with me for few days but somehow today being the unluckiest day of my life—he had to go back again to Korea because of some stuff.

Why does my day keep getting worst?

I frowned as I wiped away the last few drops of tears which were evident in my face.

Zhan POV

It have been almost a week since I lashed out at him like that. Even though I thought I will be satisfied when he stopped following me and let me live in peace just like I used to do—it was no avail at all. I kept looking at his usuals sitting place in the cafe and sigh to myself without even knowing why am I acting like this in the first place.
I wanted to forget about him but how can I when very single minute of the day he keeps lingering in my mind?

"Ooo, is someone yearning for his lover to come back? Oof you must miss him so much." I was snapped back to the present from staring at a certain table hearing that. I glared at my new co-worker who always has time to make fun of me for something that is at even real. He laughed and walked away leaving me to roll at his annoyance.
Honestly why people are so annoying in the first place?

Just as I was taking a order from a customer his family went to sit on the place Yibo used to sit. Automatically my attention was diverted back to him and I almost took the order wrong. Luckily that one wasn't those who gets rebellious easily and start a scene probably ending me up getting fired.

When I was on my way back to home I realised one thing. The days I spent with him certainly was one of greatest I've ever had. Even that time his lips touched with mine—tender feeling of them was still alive there almost as if I can feel it now. But the question which was kept unanswered was, Why I got all worked up that day and blame him for what I did?

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I woke up hearing my usual annoying alarm and then wanted to slap myself for being so stupid. It was a Saturday and me being my stupid self forgot to set off the alarm. As a result here, I'm awake early in the morning just for nothing. I even had a very interesting dream, Ahhhh. I whined and then a sudden thing caught my eyes. It was outside the window as if a silhouette and then when I opened my curtains there were absolutely nothing. When I glanced around more attentively—I realised it was just the landlord coming to god knows why. I was relieved to know he wants coming for me because I did not had my rent ready yet.

I got up from my comfortable bed as I wasn't falling asleep again anymore. While I was doing my morning routine—I was thinking about what to do today. Usually I would sleep till middle of afternoon but today I didn't knew what to do.
Guess I'll be wondering around today...

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