Say My Name [ ZhanYi ]

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"I was holding onto to you but when I loosened it, you flew away just like a kite when it's grip was loosened."

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Zhan POV

I was walking away from Yibo. I could hear his sniffles even amidst the thunders. I could already feel my own tears which I battled too hard to keep them in—falling freely on my face now. Every step I took only made it more harder for me to take another step forward. I wanted nothing more but to turn around and run back to him, crashing him a hug and console him. But I couldn't, I had to sacrifice in order for him to be safe.

Yah! Xiao you better do something or else your little boyfriend would have to suffer.
"Ah? What do you mean A'Cheng?"

Your dad just gave me the order to bring him to me. Do something or else it will be too late.

I couldn't just wait and see what will happen so I had to make up my mind. I knew the far away Yibo was from me, the more safe he is. But we were dating and I knew he wouldn't leave just because I say and I still wasn't ready to come clean and say about all my mafia relations.
So I had to make him go home and never come back to me as from what I observed they only found out my house not his.

"You said you won't leave me. And a-nd you promised me." His words are still craved inside me and his tears still made me pained. I harshly wiped away my tears and hurried my steps back to home because I still have to await for their arrival.

I suddenly heard a screeching of a vehicle which gained my attention. I was about to look back when my phone started ringing. It was Jiyang which I wasted no time to answer.

They said they have already reached there. Did something happen? Did you hide your boy somewhere or?
"They did? Shit! I'm still on my way."

I hung up and hurried my way. I had to stall them or else they'll start a whole errand and soon find Yibo. He might've still be on his way for his house.
But when I was outside my house I saw no one. No signs of damage to the house either. I was expecting more..

Though after I searched the whole house and made sure no one is inside—I sat down on my couch praying that Yibo is in his house now. I couldn't leave and see if he was safe because if they have already found a way to track me, it will be the cause for them to find Yibo easily and I didn't want him exposed at any costs. So I sat there impatiently till the sun rises, with an increasing of anxiety like feeling inside me at every passing second.

I was surprised as I realised I have managed to stay up awake till morning without an I an inch moving from where I sat. Feeling the sun rays filtering inside, I checked my phone just to see if someone has called me or atleast a text..
foolish of me to expect him to send me a text when I broke his heart just like that yesterday.

I was soon getting ready for work and was soon making coffees and taking orders. But what I didn't expect was an overly smiling Hiukan to greet me just as I entered the cafe. Though I managed to not make it too awkward between us and spend the whole day—I was still thinking about Yibo.

Maybe I can go check whether he is alright at night?
I internally slapped myself for thing that. It will still be dangerous and all my efforts will be in vain. But I couldn't resist the strong urge to go check on him and maybe just to get a small peek at him. I already miss his cute whining...

At the time I was back at home after work, I seriously couldn't have a peace of mind without wanting to go see him. After almost lying on the bed awake at midnight I decided I'd just have a small glance at his room window from afar.
I covered myself in black attire and made my way towards his house, trying to be conscious about my surroundings all the time. I was only met with a stray dog on the way which is a type of animal I hate.

I stayed on the road and glanced at Yibo's room window hoping to see lights on because I knew how scared he was to sleep without lights. But to my dismay I only saw darkness in it. Confused I waited and waited until the lights turn on because maybe he was in bathroom? But the lights stayed off until I decided it won't be on today.
He must've went to his fiend house..probably.

I consoled myself and walked back home in hopes to see him tomorrow night.

But again I didn't see his lights just like yesterday and I was starting to get nervous. D-did he leave here? I knew I should be happy because that means he is more safe but I deep down I knew there was some kind of a relief to know that I could at least see him from afar at night but now if he was gone, I might never see him.

I couldn't keep being scared over the fact of him leaving for longer because my phone started ringing. It was Jiyang again and a tiny voice inside me gave an incline feeling that this might be a bad news. With a bit of shaking hands, I answered it.

What happened? Do you already know?
"K-know what?" I could feel my heart thumping against my rib cage as I awaited for his next words.

Don't tell me you are no aware of what happens to that boy of yours.
"Happen what Jiyang? Just say it, I don't fucking know what happened okay." I said bursting out.

The men who went there already succeeded on killing him. They said that they hit him from the vehicle? I didn't heard many details though, they got an earful for not being able to bring you back and..
I didn't hear what he said afterwards because I was still processing what I just heard.
He is dead?
Y-Yibo is d-dead?

I didn't even feel my grasp on the phone loosing and falling on to the ground, cracking it's screen on the process. I didn't care,
Because the person I cared had already gone far away from my grasp.

It was funny how fast a one's world could come crash down from a second. It was that screeching sound I heard that day. If I turned back maybe..maybe I could've saved him.
I felt a sudden numb feeling mixed with anger itself.
I realised I was running. I didn't knew from what or where I was running but I knew one thing it was my fault and I will make the one's related compensate.

The tears had already dried down when I reached the place I was going to make the one's related compensate.

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Please don't kill me...

Buttt how do I  say...Have faith in me. I won't make you guys suffer a sad ending just like that..