Say My Name [ ZhanYi ]

36

''It'll be over and soon we'll be together.''

<<~>>

Yibo POV

When I heard he was dead I felt like everything stoped for a moment.

He, the only family member I had left.

Who persuaded me every single day to do something useful for once and take over his business.

And..he was dead now.

When I realized—I was already running towards the scene where it had happened. I squeezed in between through the crowding people to have a clear look. When I went there, the police was still there as well as few reporters. After all he had a famous business reputation..
I didn't knew if I was sad or angry or maybe both mixed. It was hard to enunciate. It wasn't just fair. He kept all the secrets to himself and now I will never be able to know them.
When I used to ask how my mom died, he would just wave me off saying 'try to remember yourself. If you can't, that means your brain doesn't want to remember it.'
I could still remember how worked up I got every time he used to say it.

Honestly I myself, didn't knew why I forgot such an important memory as how my mom died. Moreover when I was present at the situation that time as well. But all I could remember was a gun shot, a scream and a boy? I groaned internally at my pieces of memories and glanced back at the accident scene, which had all those yellow and black tapes around it—preventing people from entering it.

I gripped onto one of those when I felt like crying suddenly. Few seconds later, I let my tears fall slowly because the mask and cap provided enough protection to cover up my tear stained face. I couldn't even see him after the last time I saw him at the funeral of 'mine'. I haven't talked to him in ages. Yet now he was gone forever, to never talk to me again.
That moment I felt like my whole world coming down crashing. After all those months of me planning and hiding, it was today for the first time I felt like helpless. My confidence about the ambush I had planned to be in two days—felt so hard to be achieved.

Soon like this he will leave you too and you'll be alone without no one.

I wanted to scream at whatever the voice which said that inside me. It wasn't true.
I will go back to him and never let anything happen to him or us. We'll be able to be together without someone trying to separate us from one another again.
I was pulled out from my thoughts when I felt rain drops hit on my skin. I knew it was raining but I didn't bother seeking for a shelter. I stayed there as the crowd disappeared and leave me there to stand alone amidst the rain.

I stayed there reminiscing everything up to now. How carefree I was until I met Xiao Zhan. The one who stole my heart. How the electrifying effect of his touch was whenever he was near me. It all felt so distant now. Almost hard to reach anymore.
I suddenly felt that the rain drops have stopped hitting on me mercilessly. I came back to my senses and realized someone was holding their umbrella over my head. I could see the person's faint shadow behind—which have formed in front of me.

He tapped on my shoulder almost making my fast beating heart to jump out of the chest. I turned around slowly—afraid to be exposed. He gave me his umbrella and walked away leaving me to be dumbfounded. He did it in such a haughty way that made me more confused. But soon I had a faint smile forming on my lips. It was Zhan ge after all.

Did he recognize me?

I widened my eyes at the question which I asked from myself. I face palmed myself for my dumbness. I turned around slowly, till afraid that he might be still there, somewhere. But I saw no one except the isolated road. I took some time to admire the umbrella he gave me—with a faint smile. Don't worry ge, I'll come for you soon.

The next day I had to spend thinking all that could go wrong while not even bothering to get up from the bed. More like a couch which was at the state of almost breaking.
Since the last time I went to club, I did found a perfect spot but every single time I went—Zhan was there. And with him I felt too exposed even though he probably didn't even saw me.

He can't be really addicted to alcohol right? Was he there every single night since before too? I couldn't help but to grow worried just by the thought of it. No, He won't. Besides if he is, I will cure him by myself no matter what!
I didn't knew why it was so hot today even after a freaking rain last night. I groaned at the sweater I was wearing as I felt like being in a micro-wave. I was too nervous that I couldn't even put something inside my stomach before night arrived. First I was too nervous to face the devil himself. It must've probably been years since I last saw him and every single memory of him made my skin crawl in uttermost disgust.

It took me days to forget his touches and now thinking about meeting him only hitched my breadth even more. I stared at the clothes I bought for today. I had to sell my phone to keep up for few months. Lord thank Yubin for his generous birthday gift of a brand new iPhone he gave me last year. I stared at my reflection from the broken mirror at the place I was staying and knew if Zhan saw me in it, He would totally blame me for wearing this. I sighed and started heading towards the club.
Once I was in the usual atmosphere filled with uncomfortable smell of it, I looked around to check if Zhan was here again today too. After roaming around for sometimes I realized I was not here--for my relief. Then I started looking for the person I came for. I tried looking around as I took a seat at the bar counter. I ordered a drink just to play around with it because I had to be in my complete sober-self after all. Besides these drinks never interested me anyways. I would love the caramel macchiato Zhan ge makes better.

I abruptly felt someone take the seat next to me. I gave a vague look at the person and then soon widened my eyes realizing it was him after all. I didn't had to use any efforts, he had come in by himself. He smirked at me as my eyes made a contact with his.
"It's been a long time hah?''

Haoxuan...

<<~>>

Three more chapters to go!