Say My Name [ ZhanYi ]

14

"Were you that much of a magician to the point you had me thinking about you all day?"

Zhan POV

It has been...let's see-ah yeah almost a week after that incident and neither of us have seen each other yet. I know a week isn't a much of a time but ever since Yibo started to invade in my life and coming each day to see me—it feels so lonely without him actually. I don't even know if he has stopped the whatever he had with me on these time and probably   hanging out with his friends or whatsoever. But in my case, I've been alone as I was before.

I sighed as I stared outside my window, seeing the sun slowly starting to hide under the clouds not forgetting to change the colours in sky too. Today my  shift was apparently donated to a new trainee and I was given a holiday. Even though I tried keeping my mind's focus on the present, it would immediately run back to a certain black haired younger who had such a cute laugh. It's almost as if it's ringing in my ears daily and sometimes I even wonder if I'm going crazy or something. I still don't regret leaving before Yibo woke up that day when I was staying in his house ignoring the fact I almost broke my leg—climbing down from there. If I stayed there until he woke up, I wouldn't know how to face him and I didn't wanted to be awkward.

My mind was suddenly averted to the unusual thing that happened the very first next day after staying at his house.
I was walking home after my afternoon shift as the evening got darker and darker at every second which passed by. When I turned around the corner to the side path, where my house was located—I felt a sudden uneasy feeling. It was as if I'm being watched and that person is getting nearer and nearer. I quicken my pace and continued my walk until I reached the couple of stairs I had to go down. I was practically running in those and I knew there is a path which is merged to the main road which lead to my front. And if someone took it, he would be able to come in that path and easily corner me in front.
The second I stepped the last step I had, I bumped into someone as a loud yelp escape my lips. But I soon relaxed realising it was one of people I've seen around here and not some stalker who is not Yibo. I clasped my hand over my fast beating heart and walked past. I abruptly turned my routine and got into a small dark alley and waited few seconds as the one I expected walked past—looking around. I smirked and watched as the person looked around and kept walking forward not realising I was hiding there.
"Hah, he forgot I was his son after all."

I ran to my house from behind—not following the usual path, locking the door immediately.

A heavy breadth left my lips as I recalled what happened that day. If I saw frankly, it's the main reason that I don't want to confront Yibo and apologise for being rude. I knew dad would find me some day and start pestering me to come back. But hell I would do anything I can to escape the fact of being his son. Anything I learned from him all these years was that he would never have the courage to hurt me as it means he would loose his precious blood line as the best leader there. As if I care, whether he kneels me or try anything—I will not go back and I had enough determination about it.

All this time staying alone did pay off it's worth but the sudden invade happened in my life changed everything even though I hate to accept it. Even though I liked his presence, at the same time I hoped that if Yibo didn't meet me he won't have- no I won't have to be like this.
I wish you could just disappear so I won't have to be thinking so much.

Yibo POV

Never in my life, I had been feeling this much lost in hope like these days which have been passing off like an eternity. I knew why it felt like an eternity but apparently the cause of it is unware of its own actions or just simply ignoring it because he don't care.

Even Yu Bin has been so busy with his own work which was the main reason for his come to this country—leaving me alone to my self. I glanced at me and Zhan ge's chat for fifth time today and kept thinking if I should message him. And when I let my fingers on the keyboard a sudden question would appear and leave me thinking what's the point of all of this. If only I had the enough courage to confess to him...
But no, I was afraid of the outcome from him. I was afraid that maybe he will start to despise me more than now, I was afraid if he would reject me and leave me for once and for all.

The more I keep thinking, the more I keep longing for him. So I simply decided to watch some tv but ended up switching it off as I couldn't keep watching it without his honey-like voice ringing in my ear. I sighed and was about to go back on thinking but I suddenly wanted to see that club we went together that day. I smiled at that time when he said to some person that he was my boyfriend and how he dragged me away. If only he was really mine...

I stared at the club from outside before going inside. Ignoring the expected alcohol mixed sweat smell—I walked towards a vacant seat which was located far away enough for me to be in peace without those strippers bothering me. I was never even a person who drinks so honestly it sounded so lame and in reasonable for me to come here but I was missing someone too much to the point I had to come to a place where he was before as a remedy.

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New year sch work be hard asf-

But hence I've already finished writing 20th chap I will be able to follow the same updating schedule tho-

Alsoo I've got some new ideas in ma drafts but dk whether should I publish em or not smh-