"Pillow Buddy" ✔

Follow Through With Your Anger

Chapter fifty-two: "Follow Through With Your Anger"

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked him softly as I twisted my upper body to give him a side hug, I cringed at hugging him right now but at least he looks like he has calmed down

"There, there, the storm will end soon" I patted his back then started rubbing it
I feel like I am calming down a toddler right now, who knew a guy like Cloud would be afraid of thunderstorms

I checked my phone and searched about the weather and the rain won't be stopping anytime soon by tomorrow
Dear God, he won't be sleeping tonight. My poor soul, I might see my ancestors before I know it

I heard the door creak open to see that Nick and Nikki were peeking in I ushered my hand for them to leave us alone and they gave me a short nod before closing the door. Since the storm is here the room became very chilly so I have to stand up and walk to the closet to get myself a cosy thick oversized jacket to be in, as I insert my arm at the sleeve I hit something at a top drawer and it fell down next to my feet

I bent my knees and my hand reached for it so I could read what the medicine bottle says it was "Sleeping pills?" I said out loud that my eyes went up to Cloud, there was one small detail that I didn't notice once I entered the bedroom

The floor had sleeping pills scattered all over, my eyes widened in shock and horror as high amounts of sleeping pills were spilt everywhere. I know it is normal for a person with insomnia to have sleeping pills but it wouldn't be a cure either way and with many pills that were on the floor, something within me was saying that Nikki was right

My hand gripped the medicine bottle tightly and I stepped slowly closer to Cloud who looked up at me "Were you planning to do it?" I asked through gritted teeth
Anger and frustration were building up inside me, what kind of fucked up situation did Cloud get into that he would do this!? This is not sitting well with me

He turned his head and looked away from my gaze, I threw the medicine bottle at the ground and tried to storm off out of the room when I felt his hand grab my wrist and he pulled me to him. His gaze was strong but his grip on my hand was stronger
"Angel please don't leave" he pleaded
Gosh darn it, I hate the soft side of me

I pulled my hand away from him and cross my arms not looking at him in the eye as I glance out to the window with the strong rain that kept pouring down hardly at the city "Why didn't you tell us?" I mumbled

He was caught off guard at the mumble that I said under my breath and a hand ran through his hair

I yanked his t-shirt which forced him to bend down and looked at my eyes that were filled with fury "Stop being such a prideful person and spit it out Marshall!" I told him loudly

I hit his chest "You being prideful doesn't make you cool you dumbass jerk, if you are going to kill yourself at least die from natural causes. This is what happens if you keep everything to yourself you die along with your problems!" I kept hitting his chest some more
I don't know what is wrong with me but I'm sure as hell not acting like myself

He grabbed my wrist to stop me from hitting his chest, his sullen eyes looked down at me with wonder "You seem to be wiser with being a loudmouth" his hoarse voice made me give all of my attention to him

I pulled away from him "Being a loudmouth can be useful at times along with being a sailor's mouth too"

A low chuckle escaped from his lips as his sullen eyes now glow with the luminous lighting in the room that made his eyes shine, he took long strides and covered the window with the blackout curtains "Stupid rain" I said quietly to himself then turned to me

"I might stay in this room for a while" he requested and I sat on the bed then crossed my legs "Oh no you don't, after what I just saw in this very room you know damn well I'm not listening to your request"

"Angel that was when I am not in my right mind"

"So when will you be in your right mind hm? When you finally regretted your choices and just pray that you could live and get a second chance is that what you're on about?"

"Why does it seem like it's hard for you to understand empathy?" He asked me in bewilderment

"Because it's hard to empathize with you" I muttered before I walked out of the room
He was still being a jerk after his sullen state

Nikki waited for me outside the room leaning at the wall wearing her headphones with closed eyes, she was humming along with the tune that she was hearing while her brother walked around in circles talking to somebody on the phone that I think it's their parents

"Yes Mom I'm with sis right now...we are in Cloud's home...a thanksgiving reunion?" He seemed pleased at the idea of a family Thanksgiving reunion but I'm not sure if Nikki has the same excitement as her brother

She furrowed her brows at the thought when she heard him say a reunion

"You alright?" I leaned at the wall beside her, she put the headphones to rest on her shoulders

"I am, just not too jolly at having a reunion with the whole family sitting at one table together"

"Are you going to attend?"

She shrugged "It depends if that gold digger will be there" she was irritated that she grind her teeth together, Nick ended his call then glanced at his sister

"I just hope she won't make a fuss about the dinner like last year, Dad's brother is too hard to persuade to find a woman and settle down. The woman is literally a walking chaos" he groaned

"Don't get me started when she asked me if Dad is planning to divorce Mom, she wasn't even hiding her intentions"

Based on their conversation their uncle is a player and doesn't plan to settle down and he brought a gold digger at a family reunion last year which created deep-rooted anger for their uncle that he even brought her

"Can't you guys just you know, not attend?" I suggested and the twins shake their heads at me

Nikki sat down at the spiral stairs "The family head will be in this dinner and everyone should be there since he is about to tell us something important, well, that is what Dad told us"

"I'll just make an excuse and say I have an important event to go to" Nick shutter off his phone and shoved it in his pocket before sitting on the kitchen island after he got himself a cereal bar

I sat beside Nikki at the stairs and asked "Do you know any reason why Cloud is scared of thunderstorms?"

She shakes her head as her eyes landed on her brother who finished the cereal bar with two bites "I don't know Cloud that well so why don't you ask his closest friend"

The entire penthouse is silent and no one seems to know what to do to pass time since Cloud doesn't want to come out of his room
Maybe I acted too rashly, dammit Penelope you always follow through with your anger