"Pillow Buddy" ✔

Addictive

Chapter ninety-three: "Addictive"

I was woken up when lunchtime rolls around and there was food that Nikki held for me while I slept, she noticed me being finally awake and handed me my food before she gobbled down her food like it's the last supper.

Everybody was nowhere to be seen and the majority of them went off to the dining car which was right behind us at the far back where the door is, Nikki explained to me that Cloud brought food for the both of us from the dining car and he saw my family eating there. When we finally finished eating our food a train stewardess passed by us and we gave her our empty plates which she happily accepts before walking away

It was quiet in the train car so Nikki decided to start a conversation with me "What do you think about Abby?"

My fingers started to tap on the armrest "She's obsessed with Cloud" I muttered and the corner of her lips went up "You think exactly like me"

We looked at each other then giggled a little

Nikki noticed it too, Thank goodness I was not the only one who was thinking too much of things. She puts a finger under her chin "But then again, aren't you pissed?"

I am indeed a little pissed off about Abby, not only she was trying to get Cloud's attention but she even keeps preventing the twins from talking to me. It was noticeable and I don't know what she is planning

We heard the door from the back car open and Cloud along with the others entered and returned to their seats, Abby was the last to return with a smug look on her face that's he didn't even try to hide it from me. Her hair was a bit messy and her lipstick is a bit smudged
Did they just...

I heard someone snap their fingers, it was Cloud show as looking at me from his seat in front. His green eyes gazed down at me "Angel you look distracted"

At the corner of my eye, I can see that Abby smirked before sitting next to Cloud. My chest tightened a bit from what I saw

I think Cloud made out with Abby

It was normal because that's who he really is and Abby was the first, why am I feeling all angry and emotional about this?
Cloud, why does he make me feel this way

I know this feeling but I don't want to acknowledge it because I still have pride in myself, if I admit what I'm feeling it means that I have fallen for Cloud

Which I'm not by the way, but am I?

Aiden made eye contact with Nikki and I guess they have read each other's minds because they exchanged seats, so now Aiden is seated with me behind Cloud and Abby. Aiden pulled out an earphone in his bag and plugged it in his phone, giving one side of the earphone to me

We smiled at each other and I could feel Cloud's gaze burning the side of my head, I wonder what nighttime has in store for all of us since this will be my first time sleeping overnight in a moving train.

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It was after dinner that we all decided to head to the sleeping car where we each have bunker beds, Aiden's bed was so far away from us that Cloud has a happy face as he got ready for bed.

The distance from my bed and another bed was small but it's okay, Nikki wanted to get the top bunk and Nick got the other top bunk that was on top of Cloud's bed. Cloud wanted me to be close to him as possible if he needed me when he gets a panic attack

It turns out, right after everyone fell asleep except for Cloud and me he didn't have a panic attack but he couldn't sleep at the moment. He tossed and turned at his bed, thankfully the squeaking sound that is mad why his bed didn't wake up Nick

Abby was asleep at the other side of the train bunk beds with other people

She even tried to talk to either Nikki or Nick to switch beds with her but the twins are not gonna let it, they wanted the top bunk, and Abby's bed was not a top bunk. So she grumbled herself to sleep and I could even hear her curse my name under her breath.

It was dark right now at the train since all of the lights are turned off especially the small nightlight that is near the desk under the window in our space, I didn't need the light since my eyes adjusted to the darkness and I can see Cloud has his eyes wide open. My eyes unconsciously landed on his lips and I remembered Abby this afternoon

Did they really make out?

One of my hands went to touch my lips and I imagined what would it feel like to be kissed, to be able to close the gap between the person you're in love with, and to be able to feel their warmth. I hope someday I would be able to find someone I can kiss

It would be the person who cared about me and understands everything about me including my biggest flaws but that type of guy just seems to exist in imaginations or in fiction that is in romance novels. I sighed deeply and snuggled myself closer to the pillow on the bed
As if someone would accept me, I am a violent and stupid person. Guys usually like sweet and tender girls who have at least brains and common sense

Cloud turned his body sideways facing me, we made eye contact even in the dark. The only light that I could use to see him is the moonlight outside of the train that comes in through the window. The curtains weren't closed so it gave me the view of the countryside

The forest green eyes that glowed that I always associate with his mischievousness are now soft and hazy, it made it seem like he is unclear if something that he is so deep in thoughts that he couldn't sleep. His hair was messy but it made him even more handsome

We have been gazing at each other from our beds for a few minutes before he whispers "I can't sleep"

"Me too"

He slowly sat up and got off the bed to walk to me, Cloud rested his head on my lap and my hand went to his tangled hair. He was sitting on the floor and his head on my lap

I leaned my body forward to whisper in his ear "Aren't you uncomfortable in that position?"

He lifted his head then twisted it to face me "Why don't you move so I won't be"

"This bed is meant for only one person to sleep on Cloud"

He looked frustrated like he wanted to be near me but he doesn't want to be in an uncomfortable position, I can hear his low growl and sleepy yet angry eyes glaring at the bunk bed that I'm on

He mumbled "Stupid bed" he then bit one side of the inside his cheek

A small laugh escaped from my lips which caught his attention "It's only for tonight, we will finally reach Banff by tomorrow" I assured him, ever since I started sleeping beside him he doesn't want to be separated from me when we fall asleep.

Cloud sat on the side of my bed with his back slouched because his head might hit the top bunk, I was sitting up facing him as my heart raced. His face was coming closer and closer until the tip of our noses touched

His hand was at the back of my neck while he stroked my jaw near my ear, his hands were rough but he touched me gently like he is afraid of scaring or even hurting me

"What are you doing?" I asked nervously as my hand went to my chest and I can feel my heart beating loudly

"If only we weren't in the train" he spoke in a low quiet voice that made my spine tingle a bit, his hands were warm and I melt in his touch. Why is he acting like this? Is it from lack of sleep?

I don't know what is his reason but he better stop now because I don't think I might want to let go of his warm touch, it was so addictive.