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Enhypen's Niki - Hate

(Requested by SreelekshmiAVNair, hope you like it)

(TW: suicidal thoughts, hate comments)

(Also sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes)

Niki's POV 

It was Saturday and we were off. We were all planning to have a lazy day. Friday night after practice we all decided to stay up late. We ordered take out and played games for hours. My Hyungs were all happy and laughing. I was glad to see them happy. Because I wasn't. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to see my Hyungs happy, but I'm feeling kind of down. Lost. I have been getting lots of hate comments for no reason. Like yesterday I saw NIKI LEAVE ENHYPEN. I thought this was going to be fun joining a group. Dancing and doing what I love. I guess I need to rethink that. So today I was going to take advantage of this lazy day. I went on my phone and saw a Twitter notification. I clicked on it and I saw all of these terrible comments.

USER5775

Niki is such a brat. He's holding back the team. He's too young to ever be there. They have to baby him and it's so disgusting. They are all faking. They don't really love him.

User14685

Niki is so ugly. Like the rest of the members are soo handsome. And then there's Niki. He makes me want to puck.

User90097655

I just want Niki to die. Sorry not sorry. Like he's so. I can't even explain how much I hate him.

I didn't even realize I was crying. Were all these things true? Did my Hyungs hate me? Am I that ugly? Why do people want me dead? I'm just a kid who loves dancing and went after his dream. I don't understand. I got up from bed and walked to the bathroom. I heard my Hyungs laughing in the kitchen. I guess they wanted to let me sleep more. I locked the door and looked into the mirror. They were right. I am ugly, all my Hyungs are handsome and I'm not. I kept on hearing them laughing and it made me think. Do they really like me? They seem fine without me being there. So maybe I would be better off dead. The fans won't care because they want me to die and my Hyungs are faking to like me. So I should just end it. I walked out of the bathroom only to be greeted by a happy Jake and Sunoo Hyung.

"Oh Niki, you're awake" Jake Hyung said, throwing an arm around my shoulders.

"Yeah,'' I said coldly. 

"Oh um we left you some food in the kitchen,'' Sunoo Hyung said. His smile made my heart hurt. He's probably giving me his fakest smile. 

"Thanks,'' I said walking away. Leaving them both stunned. I entered the kitchen and saw Jay and Sunghoon Hyung washing the dishes.

"Good morning Niki" Jay hyung said which then made Sunghoon Hyung look at me.

"Oh Good morning Niki,'' he also said. I wanted to puke. They were this fake. Unbelievable.

"Mhm" I hummed. Then the room went quiet. The only thing you could hear was them washing dishes. I finished eating and walked back to our room, but before I could enter Heeseung Hyung and Jungwon Hyung called my name.

"Niki, do you want to watch a movie and play video games?'' Heeseung Hyung said, looking like a happy little kid.

"No".

"Why not," Jungwon Hyung said, whining.

"Because I don't want to".

"Oh ok then" Heeseung Hyung said, trying not to look disappointed. I walked into the room and locked it. I went to my bed and hid under the covers. I just want to die. That will fix everything. My Hyungs can be truly happy and same as the fans. I cried myself to sleep.