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Hyunjin - Hiatus

( Requested by SaraKhan908378)

(Sorry if this is bad I tried my best, I don't think I'm that good at writing angst. Also sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes)

TW(trigger warning ⚠️⚠️⚠️ )
(Self harm, blood, bad thoughts, etc, so don't read if your not comfortable)

Hyunjin's POV
The same scenario plays out every day. Wake up, eat breakfast, watch my members leave for work, go to my room, play video games, scroll through social media, nothing new. This became my daily life after bullying accusations were made by people on the internet. My company wanted me to apologize and go on a hiatus. They told me to apologize, even if I didn't do anything. The members tried to cheer me up, and it worked a little bit. They also stop by for lunch and then go back to the company. I don't want Straykids to have a bad reputation because of me.

So today was no different.

"Bye Hyunjin Hyung," Jeongin said, coming to hug me.

"Bye, fox see you later, ok" I said with the fakest smile. Everyone else then said their goodbyes or see you laters. Then it was just me. Once I was sure they were gone, my smile dropped. I grabbed my phone on the kitchen counter and went back to my room. I was bored with playing video games and watching movies, so I went on social media. Bad idea. I went on Twitter and saw these things trending.

HYUNJIN LEAVE STRAYKIDS

HYUNJIN THE BULLY

There were lots more, but I clicked on the HYUNJIN THE BULLY one first. I read things like

User7477
If hyunjin bullied those people, what is he doing to his members?
User1243
Probably bullying them too.
User965
He needs to be stopped.
User8736
Why is he even in the group?
User1243
@8736 I don't know he's not even that talented, to be honest.

I wanted to close the tab or write and tell them that I'm not a bully and I don't hurt people. But I knew the second option might make things worse. I then clicked on HYUNJIN LEAVE STRAYKIDS.
More things like

User94764
He's not even that good. Felix and Minho are way better dancers.
User94700
He should leave the group, I feel like he's holding them back.

Once I read that I closed the tab and turned off my phone. Do I really suck at dancing? Am I holding them back? These thoughts and more ran through my mind. I tried to watch TV to get my mind off it, but I couldn't not stop thinking about it. So this also became a daily thing. Also checking social media and reading negative comments. I did this so much that the voices in my head became loud. They would say you're useless, they don't want you, you should leave, no one likes you. YOU SUCK.
I didn't bother to tell my members because I didn't want to hold them back or be even more of a burden. Chan hyung called us all down for dinner, I didn't feel like eating. As I made my way downstairs I tripped on some clothes that were left on the stairs. I fell on my face which caused a nosebleed and scratched my face a little too. To be honest it hurt, but I didn't mind. I was feeling numb at this point. Everyone was there and they all started getting out of their chairs, I guess they heard me fall.

"Are you ok"? Minho hyung asked running to me with napkins in hand.

"Yea, I'm good,'' I said, pushing away the napkins that were being offered.

"That doesn't hurt,'' Seungmin said, looking confused and slightly worried.

"Yea, it hurts but I'll survive,'' I said.

They all looked kind of shocked to be honest.

"At least let us fix you up,'' Chan hyung said, getting the first aid kit.