Classroom Of The Elite Class S

Chapter 3 : My Mother?

Ayanokouji Kiyotaka PoV

After all this talk, there's something still bugging me.

Why did he all this for me? There are other students here. We didn't necessarily had a typical father-son relationship. Just having a memory inducing anxiety doesn't change who you are and how you feel.

Only possibility left the, that particular memory involved me. May be physically or in a conversation which had a great impact on him

How this can benefit him? I know he said he will give me freedom etc. But only in a partidon of weakness however its not like he will experience such pain again if he changed his now. It also not that I can claim his breaking his words.

Also has he abandoned his dream of me ruling Japan? No he definitely still belive in that but from as much as I can gather from miniscule wisdom related to emotion I posses that that it's like he regretting or may be pity me for higher endurance over the years.

Or is there anything else? I guess its not urgent.

"May I leave now?" I said as there almost being 27..28 seconds of us standing here.

He took a few seconds before responding. He looked ..unsure. He decided to collect his thoughts and starts a novice chain of it.

His expression can de read as someone who is trying to hide something, which can be almost anything, but also feeling pressure by keeping it inside.

Then he took a deep noisy breath and started speaking

"No want to tell somethings. I wanted tell you something. I should have years ago thinking it's not time, but it's never time unless you make it appropriate."He said and gestured me take a sit down.

Did he just accept a mistake on his part?
I am surely missing a crucial fragment here.

If that's how anxiety works, I clearly was read something wrong as his anxiety is dragging him towards more...normal, I learnt than if not attended with care it can effected the ability to rationalize and may fall in deep state of depression and suffering, may result in brain damage, it's inversly proportioning here.

I in sit down whuch gestured him to continued.

"I am only telling you all this, because you will be going outside to that wretched world. So that you can use it however you feel when you are outside and as ....one day its going to be all yours. So I take it as a reward for completing and achieving everything here at White Room." He said.

He expression clearly showing he is not with this conversation but having it regardless may like a sense of duty? I don't know at this point his action are very contrarydictory I doubt even he is understanding himself.

"When I first started White Room, I used to do things more.....normally or should I say someone kept me on leash." He said and paused to recollect his thought again.

Now it's crystal just his face he himself don't understand his reasoning behind telling all this. In one moment he looks like wants to speak it out load to get it this overwith, another expression explain his psychology to be contradictory as he is explaining himself he considered his property.

As he has already hitherto have commiserated the profundity of situation about to escalate here as when i will go in outside world. Also I almost nearing skipped the most riveting and intriguing there he said till now.