we're just best friends | wroetoshaw

fifteen

time skip a lil bit celeste is just leaving her parents house to go back to london. ALSO TW FOR SH!!! ⚠️⚠️
i finished packing all my stuff and was getting ready to go back to london. i grabbed my suitcase and brought it back downstairs.
"i'm going to miss you so much cel"
"i'm going to miss you to mum, i'll make sure to visit more often i promise" she pulled me in for a hug and started playing with my hair.
"my little girl really is grown up"
"mum i love you so much, thank you for these past couple of weeks"
"anything for you my child." i waved goodbye to them both as i walked out of there front door, i turned back round to look at there cottage and walked over to my car. i couldn't wait to get back to london.

after the two hours drive i finally arrived back at mine and faiths apartment. for once i fancied going up the stairs, but regretted it a few minutes later. every morning whilst in oxford, i'd been going for morning runs. they took my mind of everything going on around me, it was nice to feel free. i thought i'd message faith to see whether she was at home or not.

to faithh<3:
heyy, are you at the apartment rn?

from faithh<3:
no sorry, i'm at ethan's. i thought you weren't coming back until tomorrow.

to faithh<3:
change of plan, i wanted to see everyone again.

from faithh<3:
i'll be round soon, i just need to finish helping ethan with something, missed you sm babe !!

to faithh<3:
i missed you more!!!

i turned off my phone and continued walking up the stairs until i got to our flat.
"why did i do that" i mumbled to myself. i went to put my key in the lock but the door was already open, faith never leaves the door open. i grabbed my keys in my hand as a weapon and slowly stumbled through the door.
"SUPRISE" everyone screamed.
"WHAT THE FUCK I THOUGHT SOMEONE BROKE IN" they all came back and gave me huge hugs, until i saw a girl who was vaguely familiar.
"hey, i'm milly" she walked over to me, her brunette her was silky, the hair i could only ever dream of.
"oh hi, your with harry right?"
"yeah and your his best friend"
"yeah, he told me about you"
"i hope good things" she chuckled, she also had a perfect laugh. brilliant. i couldn't hate her if i tried.
"of course and i just wanna say one thing you are absolutely gorgeous, i hope you and harry last i really do" i gave her a smile then pulled her in for a hug. she was to sweet to hate and that pained me.
"your so sweet oh my god, also i love you outfit we should really get together one time. can i get your number?"
"of course i'll type it in for you" i typed in my phone number and then walked over to see faith who pulled me in for a huge hug.
"cel i don't think you realise how lonely i was, your never leaving again I've banned you"
"now you know what it's like when you leave me for ethan" she poked me and then offered me a drink.
"i'm okay thanks, i'm just gonna head to the loo."
"okay talk later" i grabbed my suitcase and bought it into my room where i started unpacking all my things. i missed oxford, why was my mind so bipolar?
knock knock
i wondered who it could be.
"come in" harry walked in with a huge smile on his face.
"cel i'm so glad your back" he ran over and chucked me onto the bed and cuddled me.
"you've gotten soppy!"
"just wanted to see my best friend that's all"
"harry what'd you want" i looked up into his ocean eyes. they were so gorgeous.
"what do you think of mils, you to seemed to be getting along really well earlier."
"harry, she's one of the sweetest people i've met like ever. i think she's the right one bog." and that's when i knew my feeling for him wouldn't just go away they were still there. and every time i saw him they were just getting stronger. but it had to stay hidden he was happy. i wasn't going to put my feelings before his own, he deserves happiness after all the shit he's been through.
"thank you so much, i knew you two would get along. anybody for you cel?"
just you i thought.
"nope embracing being single it's quite fun to be honest, can have sex without catching feelings." he laughed at me.
"your a weird one cel you know that right?"
"yes and you've turned soppy for mils, go make her your girlfriend right now, you've got puppy dog eyes over her. harry your in love." why did i say that. i'm begging for him to say i'm not in love with her i'm in love with you. but the chances of that going to happen were slim.
"i think your right cel, i am in love. i'm gonna make her my girlfriend right now" great and it was my own fault. stupid self sabotager.
he walked out of my room and walked towards our kitchen. i peered behind my door to see how he was asking, he stopped the whole room to be quiet.
"mils your the most beautiful girl i've ever met and i mean it. your smile lights up my day, your eyes are gorgeous to stare into everyday. will you be my girlfriend?"
"i thought you'd never ask" they smiled lovingly at each other. he lifted her up and started kissing her passionately as she wrapped her legs around his waist. i shut my door quickly and sat down. i'm so stupid, i could've just told him and they wouldn't even be together. i saw a blade to the side of me, i'd been clear for 8 months. but guess them days were over. the sharp blade ran across my skin causing a sting, but i was free. it came across my skin again and again causing bloody tiger stripes across my arm.
"celeste what are you doing?" i looked upwards slowly and jj was stood there.