we're just best friends | wroetoshaw

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Harry's pov still:

i woke up to milly getting out of bed. what did happen last night, i can't remember a thing. I picked up my phone and checked the time. 9.37 . i laid there for a couple more minutes trying to recall all the events that had happened the night before. i heard a load of shouting coming from the kitchen, i went to get up to see what it was all about but milly was in the doorway so i couldn't check out what was happening. It sounded like celeste and faith shouting, maybe arguing about the state of the flat. I heard the door slam as milly walked back into the room confused.

'you alright mil?'

'yeah, I'm okay just gonna get my stuff and then I'm gonna go home. that bed was shit to sleep on.' she grabbed all her stuff quickly and practically ran out of the door. had i done something? i got up and walked out looking between Faith and Ethan having a serious conversation, as soon as they saw me they quickly stopped and looked away. they got back to cooking pancakes.

'what's happened?' i asked raising my voice a little. nothing could of happened to cel, she was so happy yesterday.

'put some clothes on and we'll tell you' Ethan laughed. it couldn't be to bad if he was laughing...right? i quickly grabbed the clothes that i had on yesterday and ran back out in the kitchen.

'Ethan knows about everything that happened yesterday, including everything with milly and the stuff you said about cel' i looked between the two and they both gave sorrowful looks at me.

'can we just forget about all of it? please. Is cel okay?'

'she's fine just got a bit mad about the flat being a mess that's all' good she was okay.

'do you mind if i stay here for the rest of the day, i wanna catch cel later'

'that's fine there's a key underneath the plant pot, me and Ethan are about to go apartment shopping, we really think the one were about to see is the perfect one. JJ is still here but he needs to leave soon, he's got to film some reddit videos' faith said just grabbing her bag as her and Ethan were walking out the door. i waved bye to them as i set myself down on the sofa. i turned on the TV as JJ walked out of her room in a rush.

'See you later harry, nothing happened by the way' why was he telling me that? i wanted to know but did i really make it that obvious.

'see you mate' he shut the door behind him running out the door. everyone was so busy this morning, what was happening?

A couple hours had passed and i was still at cel's flat. i heard keys being put into the door. cel walked in jumping out of her skin when she saw me sat down on her sofa.

'oh hey harry, wait what are you doing here?'

'i stayed over last night with milly in the spare room. i hope you didn't mind'

'oh no that's fine i didn't even realise' she looked off, something was definitely going through her mind.

'aren't you supposed to be out with the girls right now?, mils told me' when will i ever stop talking about her, just by the look on cel's face it makes her uncomfortable.

'i was but i came back here to get some stuff but i don't know whether i wanna go anymore, I'm not feeling up to it' she went to walk away but i grabbed her hand and pulled her back towards me. i didn't want to let her go. she gave me butterflies nobody else has ever given me . i wanted to kiss her so badly, but that was all in my head. what if she rejected me?

'cel, are you okay? if your uncomfortable with me and milly around we'll stay away. i know it's awkward after everything that happened' i wasn't going to choose between the two because i knew what it would turn out to be. it would always be celeste.

'i think that would be best' oh. i wasn't expecting that. i saw tears well up in her eyes as she walked into her bedroom. i stood there frozen still, i truly had just lost her. i went to grab all my things when i got a message from JJ saying ''everyone meet at cel and faiths flat i have something urgent to tell you'' i waited here for five minutes and everyone started arriving. JJ arrived last.

'what was urgent JJ, should we get cel?' gee asked.

'no, it about cel actually, last night when i went in her room, i found her cutting herself. she was crying loads, she didn't give me a reason why though.' i stared at the ground. it was my fault. i shouldn't of kept talking about milly to her, i knew how uncomfortable it made her yet i still continued this was all my fault. i felt tears start to form in my eyes but i brushed them away quickly. i felt an arm wrap around my waist, i looked down and it was milly. i tried to push her arm of but she dug her nails in, she wouldn't let go.

'it's okay babe, I'm here for you' her nails dug in deeper as she pulled me in for a hug. i hated milly she had to go.

'milly this isn't the best time right now can you just stop' she started pinching at my skin and digging her nails in even more.

'I'm just caring for you baby' she let go finally and i was about to walk into the bathroom when i heard cel's bedroom door click open.

'cel what have you been doing in there?' Freya asked.

'n-nothing, why' she looked over at JJ who had his head down looking at the floor. she was lying.

'JJ did you tell them?' he looked up at her and nodded. i saw the pain in her eyes and i think everyone else saw it to.

'you promised'

'you promised you'd never do it again' JJ replied.

'i said i wouldn't be able to keep that, you promised. i was going to get help. why?' my heart broke in pieces to hear her like this is couldn't bear it.

'i couldn't keep it in, you needed people around you to help you'

'JJ i didn't when i was alone all those months, i was alone. i was fine. it was my way to cope and none of you understand.' she went to run away but i pulled her back. she turned around to face me.

'cel stop running away'

'let go of me' she tried to wriggle out of my grip but i was a lot stronger than she was. she looked up into my teary eyes and broke down. i collapsed with her and soon everyone came running to give her a huge hug.

'don't cry please, the pain was for me not you' my heart broke again and i pulled her in closer never wanting to let her go. my poor girl. she looked up directly at milly.

'milly are you okay?' she cared about others more than her own self, and that's what i loved about her.

'no I'm not okay, your in love with my fucking boyfriend!' everybody turned to look at her but she only stared at me. was she really in love with me?

'i-i don't' she replied. maybe she wasn't.

' i heard you shouting this morning, just have him he's more into you than me' i wanted celeste not milly.

'milly listen he's not. he tells me every day how much he's in love with you. I'm not in love with him it's just the thought of having someone around. please don't give up on him you guys are soulmates' we weren't. me and celeste were and everybody could see that. i had to choose milly i couldn't be seen as though i was just with her for sympathy. so i walked over to milly and kissed her.

'milly you'll always be my first choice.' she will never ever be my first, celeste is my priority. i saw cel smile and walk back into her room and then milly decided for me that we were leaving. i said goodbye to everyone then left with the girl who was controlling me.

when we got home milly grabbed my phone of me.

'what's your password i wanna tell your fans you're dating me' she kept on and on until i gave it and when i saw the post my heart sank for cel. what have i done to her. i saw all the guys comments and i knew this was all going to end up in one huge argument. if i lose everybody now this is all mill's fault.

hey guys!! so basically something happened to chapter 19 and idk what🤨🤨 and i'm lazy so i ain't writing it again but basically it was just a recall of the events from harry's point of view and it went through the fact that milly tried to sexually assault harry and he realises that he's not in love with her but with cel. so there's like a mini version i'll probs rewrite it soon but i'm tired lol okay love ya.
iz xxxxxxx