we're just best friends | wroetoshaw

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tw: mention of sh
"what are you doing" jj walked in.
"n-nothing" i stuttered. i hid the blade in a draw and my arm behind my back.
"cel, please i can't see you like this. just talk to me." he came over and sat next to me. i told him everything. about how i loved harry and how much i hated myself. he sat and listened quietly and didn't interrupt once.
"before you finish, you need to promise me you'll never do it again now let me get it cleaned up for you" he took me by the hand and led me into the bathroom and cleaned up my cuts for me.
"cel, please don't."
"that's a promise i can't make" he looked down at me and tears formed in his eyes.
"celeste don't, none of us can lose you. you are one of the most amazing people i've ever met, your so kind and caring and beautiful. i will make you not hate yourself i'm not sure how, but why do you feel like this?"
"i'm numb jide i can't feel anything anymore, nothings real. life's a fairytale and i'm the villain whose going to end up dying from my own battles." jj pulled me into his chest and i sobbed, i cried worse into him than i had with anybody before. i felt safe with jj.
"your safe with me, nothings going to happen to you" he pulled me in tighter and kissed the top of my head.

the party finally finished at 4.00am and jj had stayed by my side the whole time making sure i was alright.
"you can stay the night if you want?"
"that would be nice i can't be bothered to drive home" he smiled at me.
"you can come on the other side of my bed and i don't mean it like that before you say anything mister" i poked his nose and took him up to my bedroom. i got changed into some pyjamas in the bathroom as i wasn't comfortable showing myself in front of jj. i walked out and he was already fast asleep on my bed. i climbed in next to him facing the other way when two arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me in closer.
"you looked cold, i hope you don't mind"
"no of course not" i turned round and snuggled into his chest and had one of the best night sleeps i had had in a while.
***
i woke up to my phone blowing up.
buzz buzz
i groaned as i got up and checked it.

from faithh<3:
why's jj in your bed babe?

to faithh<3:
i promise nothing happened, he didn't want to go home and i was lonely so he stayed over.

from faithh<3:
okay i believe you get ready and then we can talk.

i put down my phone and wriggled out of jides grip as he was still fast asleep. i grabbed a hoodie and some leggings and shoved them on. i walked out of the room and smiled at jj. he looked so peaceful when he slept.
"okay miss explain" faith was there with ethan by the side of her.
"look nothing happened okay ask him yourself am i not allowed a bit of comfort in my life when it's so shit at the moment. you don't know what it's like when someone your madly in love with goes and confesses there love to someone else." i raised my voice and it croaked. i couldn't be seen crying right now. i went back into my room said bye to jj and walked out of the flat and went on a run. it took my mind of everything. all my thoughts disappeared and it felt great, felt great to be free.

there's a switching of pov here lol

milly's pov:
yesterday was so perfect, i felt closer to harry then i ever had done before. me and him were so drunk last night we stayed over at celeste's in there spare room. he had finally made me his girlfriend and it felt great. ever since we had locked eyes with each other in that video i knew we were soulmates. i got up and kissed harry on the forehead and went to brush my hair when i heard shouting outside. it sounded like celeste. i opened the door slightly and listened into the mini argument going on.
"... you don't know what it's like when someone your madly in love with goes and confesses their love to someone else" her voice was breaking she was crying. i was tempted to go out and comfort her when i realised she was on about harry. she was in love with my boyfriend. she'd been so nice to me, why was she in love with him? all i knew was that if he had a choice it was her. it was always going to be her. i'd even choose her over my own self. she was just perfect and hearing someone you know you could never compete against saying there in love with your boyfriend is nothing you ever want to hear. i couldn't hate her they'd been through a lot together, they have chemistry. i thought about leaving harry so he could have her, but that's when i realised. he didn't want her. he wanted me. he picked her over me already. he's in love with me. not her. maybe he would choose me even if there was a choice.