Right.....Wrong.....I don't know

A reapers lament

Cleveland fell to her knees crying.

She held onto her scythe as if it were the only thing keeping her from sinking into hell itself.

She was caught up with processing everything she did. Not what she was forced or commanded to do.

She did all of that herself.

She killed her friend in her own fit of rage.

Cleveland grabbed her scythe and with a scream slashed it at her throat.

She waited for the blade to cut her throat, but that never came.

When she opened her eyes she saw that all of her tentacles caught the scythe in mid air and pushed it away from her.

“Let me kill myself you stupid things!” screamed Cleveland in tears as she kept trying to kill herself but her tentacles didn’t bulge.

*Would you stop that, breathe Cleaveland.*

“Are you doing this siren!?”screamed Cleveland and stared at chibi Observer.

*Well yes, I can control your body.*

“Then you made me kill her. You bastard!” screamed Cleveland and let go of the scythe. Her tentacles simply held it behind her. 

*No, I didn't. In fact you somehow shut me off yourself. I could literally only watch you do anything.*

“What! I didn’t do that out of my own choice, Y-Y-You must have done this. Influenced my brain. Commanded me to do it.” said Cleveland in tears and fell to her knees. Everytime she looked at Edinbughs corpse the last few minutes rushed through her head.

*Cleavland, I literally couldn’t talk to you. You just shut off my connection. I could only watch.* 

“But that would mean that I did this. Which is impossible! I wouldn’t kill her just to overshadow my own weakness.” said Cleveland in tears as she looked around. "Had I been faster, everyone would still be alive!”

*And trying to kill yourself is the best solution for that?*

“DO YOU THINK I CAN LIVE WITH THIS!?! I am the same species as my enemy and just did something that can’t be reversed!” cried Cleveland. ”If I did this myself then my life has no value anymore. So ending it is the best choice.”

*After I worked my metaphorical ass off to save it? Cleavland, we must continue! What you did was the right thing anyway.*

“THE RIGHT THING?!!” screamed Cleveland and punched the ground, cracking it. "In what way was this the right choice, killing my friend while using all of your siren abilities?”

*How you managed the floating and tentacle control thing you did there surprised me. But it was the right thing. Oh, and she wasn’t your friend anymore.*

“Of course she was you, no, I am the monster here. She was Edinburgh of the Royal Navy and one of the purest souls I knew.” said Cleveland as she struggled into a stand. “And I killed her.”

*Yes you did, but why?*

“You must have forced me. God why wasn’t I faster.” lamented Cleveland.

*I didn’t force you to do anything. And even if you were faster you would only have seen worse things.*

“If I would be faster that little girl would still be alive!” screamed Cleveland.”If I would have been faster than I could have at least tried to protect them.”

She sat down on the fountain. "I can’t be a warrior of justice anymore. Not after this.”

*If you ask me, you did justice to everyone here, Miss reaper.*