STRAWBERRY BUBBLEGUM [18+]

Chapter Twenty-Three

March 20th, 2012
Washington, DC
View Point Apartments
Jennifer's Place

I sat on the couch as Tara or Dr. Lewis, sat in the chair to the left of me. I had my hands tucked between my legs as I stared down into space. It's been about 13 days since Emily left and I had to decide to leave Spence's place the day we found out. I wanted to be alone to think and process everything. I sent her an email to let her know that I was going to try.

"JJ.." Tara said, placing her hand on my knee. I looked up at her. "What are you thinking about?" She asked.

"Emily.. It's just strange, ya know? Like a part of me wants to remember then another part doesn't because I don't deserve Emily.."

"Why do you think that? Why do you think you don't deserve Emily?" I shrugged.

"I don't know. I'm nothing compared to her, I mean she knows Arabic, FLUENTLY, might I add. Her mother is an ambassador, she's been to places I can't even tell you where they are. She's out of my league!"

"Just because she has those things doesn't mean that she's out of your league. She could see other things about you that you never knew she was attracted to. Penelope was telling me that you had or still have a crush on Emily? Is that still true?" I squirmed under her stare. I mean, who didn't have a crush on Emily? Have you seen her?

"I mean, maybe, I don't know. I'm still trying to believe that she's alive. We just buried her months ago and now.. Now, she's alive. I just want to remember.."

"That's what I'm here for. I'm going to have you close your eyes and relax. Just breathe, I'll be here when you're ready"

"Ready for what?"

"You'll know"

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It's been 13 days since I left Washington. I missed everyone but I needed this time. I was getting bored and TV can only do so much. I grabbed my phone, turning it out. 5 minutes after it turned on, it started ringing with a call from Garcia. I rolled my eyes. I sighed and pressed answer.

"Emily Elizabeth Prentiss, where the hell are you?!" She screamed into the phone.

"Somewhere"

"Somewhere, where? These men are driving me crazy!"

"Look, I just need a little time okay? I didn't get to take care of myself when I came back, I immediately went to work."

"Are you safe?"

"Yes, I'm very safe. How are things there?" I asked picking at my nails.

"Things are happening. Everyone blames themselves for you leaving, especially JJ.." I sat up when hearing her name. I miss her so much.

"How is she doing?"

"She's talking with a psychologist. Doctors said it could help her regain her memory. Do you miss her?"

"Is that even a question that needs to be asked? Of course I miss her. I love her so much and I can't even be with her, I should be there helping her!" I said as tears started running down my face. "I don't know what to do or what to think. I just feel empty"

"I know honey. We are trying to help her as well. We know how much you guys love each other. Give it a few more days and she'll be coming to you, I feel it" we talked for 2 more hours about pointless things, she told me more about Spences and Derek's relationship. She also told me more about Tara and how they know each other but I knew there was more to them.

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It felt like a lifetime went by then I started seeing flashes. They were bright at first. It made me clutch my head tightly, praying that they went away. I kept seeing Emily, with me. We were together.

"Jennifer!" I heard a voice say. It sounded like Emily.

"Jennifer!" There it is again. Where is she?

"AGENT JAREAU" My head snapped up and I saw Tara kneeling down in front of me. "Hey, you okay?" I sat back, taking deep breaths. My heart was pounding so fast. I looked at Tara with wide eyes as they filled with tears. "Hey, you're okay. What did you see?"

"Emily and I.. W-we were together."

"What were y'all doing?" I closed my eyes trying to remember again. I wanna see it again. I picked at my nails and I sat there trying to bring the memories back.

"We were at this house and we were sitting on the couch talking.. S-she said she loved me then she disappeared"

"Where did she go?" I shook my head.

"I don't know, she left.. She's not dead anymore right?"

"That's correct. Did you see anything else?"

"No, it hurts to think. Can we stop for the day?"

"Of course. You can always call me okay? Night or day, it doesn't matter the time."

"Okay, thank you. How much do I owe you?"

"It's on the house. I'm doing a friend a favor and plus I want to help you. Penelope told me a lot about you and Emily's relationship, I want to help you remember."

"Okay, I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" I said standing up, walking her to the door.

"You call me when you're ready. I'm not going to rush you or demand that you see me. I know how tiring this can be. Now, as you start regaining your memory, you will get headaches like that. Just try to remain calm throughout them. Call me if they get worse though okay?"

"I can do that."

"Alright, have a good night" I gave her a small wave as she left. I closed and locked the door. I leaned against the door, looking around my apartment. It doesn't feel the same.

I went back into the living room and grabbed my phone. I went to the messages between Emily and I. I sat there reading through them. I looked at all the videos and photos we had sent one another. It felt strange to think that she's my girlfriend and if my memory didn't come back, I would still want to be with her. I've always had a crush on Emily, ever since we first started. She makes me very nervous because she's so smart and funny, Spence likes her so that's a plus. He's like my brother but you probably already knew that.

I didn't realize that I had dialed her number until I heard her voice.

"Jennifer? Hello?" I swallowed thickly and raised the phone to my ear.

"Uh, hi. Are you busy?"

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OOOP-- OKAY BABYGIRL IS DOING BETTER. YOU BETTER WORK MS GIRL 💅🏾

Should JJ get her memory back or make her fall in love with Emily how she is? 🤨🧐

Stay tuned for more babes and I'm sorry that I'm not posting as often anymore. I haven't been feeling good the last few days 🤧🙃 and work has been kicking my ass.

Also, this fandom is just getting so toxic, I honestly don't want anything to do with it but that's over in the TikTok world.

So keep being patient with me and I'll try to make every chapter worth it.