Chasing Ashton -Lashton Hirwin-

Chapter Twenty Four: 'I don't want to be with you..'

Chapter Twenty Four: 'I don't want to be with you..'

Luke wandered around the now clean house and huffed a little, it had taken him ages to get Ashton cleaned up and into bed, still completely unconscious, "Another hour, if he's not awake, I'll call an ambulance" he kept repeating to himself, he paced around and tried finding something else to do, he'd cleaned everything, he'd tidied, he'd opened windows, he'd made it smell normal again, he'd organised, exactly how Ashton liked it, he organised it.

He organised.

He never organised things, he was messy and didn't care, but for some reason he felt the need to organise everything, he felt like he had to. He checked the time again and then started dialling 999, he put the phone to his ear and then he felt a hand on his shoulder, he spun round and hit Ashton in the face, "Oh my, god, Ashton I'm so sorry!" he said ending the call, dropping the phone and putting his hands on Ashton's cheeks, "I'm so sorry, I didn't realise it was you and you made me jump and yo-Why are you smiling?"

"Stop apologising, it's fine, I'm okay" Ashton said, his voice croaky, "I mean, it hurt, but I'm okay" he slipped his hands round Luke's waist and pulled him close to him, "I'm okay" Ashton whispered, he placed a small, soft kiss on Luke's forehead and smiled, he'd noticed that Luke was getting taller, he hated it, but he knew Luke'd end up the taller of them both, Luke smiled at him and slid his hands round the back of Ashton's neck, interlocking his fingers together,

"I was, so worried about you, so worried, you just, you were just unconscious and, I couldn't wake you up, I was, so scared, Ash, I was so scared" Luke blurted, his eyes started welling up and he was trying his hardest not to break Ashton's eye contact, but he looked at the floor and let the tears go, Ashton wrapped his arms around him and hugged him tight, Luke wrapped his arms around Ashton's neck and buried his face in the crook of his shoulder, "I was, s-scared, I was gonna l-lose you.." he sobbed, he'd never cried this much over one person in his life but he was so, overemotional when it came to Ashton, he didn't know why.

"Hey, calm down" Ashton whispered, "I'm right here, I'm okay, I'm not going anywhere I promise you" he hugged Luke tighter and tried calming him down, he didn't know what to do, he'd never been in this situation before. 

After a few minutes Luke pulled away from Ashton and looked him in the eyes, "Do you still want to be with me?" he asked, plain and simple. Ashton smiled and kissed Luke suddenly, within seconds Luke was kissing him back, his fingers tangled in Ashton's hair and Ashton's hands trailed down Luke's back, it was intense, passionate, Ashton started walking forward, backing Luke into the wall, he bumped into it hard and Ashton placed his hands on the wall either side of Luke so he couldn't get away. The kiss grew deeper, a few soft moans escaped their lips and Luke's grip on Ashton's hair grew tighter, Ashton pressed his body against Luke's causing Luke's breathing to hitch, he fiddled with the seem of Luke's shirt and started to slide his hands up the back of it. The feel of Ashton's soft hands on his skin made Luke's knees start to buckle, the burning sensation of his fingers, and the small circles Ashton was making with his finger tips made him tingle, he couldn't get enough of his touch, his kisses, he needed more. They'd barely stopped to take any breaths, it was like oxygen didn't matter to them any more, they had each other and that was all they needed.

"Luke.." Ashton whispered through kisses,

"Hm?" Luke queried not really caring for what he was going to stay, he just wanted him to carry on kissing him, to carry on dragging his fingers across the top of his jeans, to carry on making little circles with his fingertips, Ashton broke the kiss off and looked at the floor, "Ash? What's, what's wrong?" Luke asked tilting his head slightly so he could try to see Ashton's face,

"I, I don't.."

"Don't what?" Luke asked now worried, don't could mean anything, but he was scared, what if, just what if his hunch was right? "Ashton please, talk to me?" Luke asked, he'd put his hands on Ashton's hips now, but Ashton's remained firmly planted on the wall locking Luke in place,

"I don't...Want to, be with you, any more" Ashton said, his voice still a little croaky, Luke breathed out slowly, he didn't understand how they went from kissing, to being over in a matter of seconds,

"Right" he managed to say, he pushed Ashton away from him and walked over to the sofa, picking up his phone from the floor and his coat from the hook he made a start for the door. Ashton was still stood in the same place, leaning against the wall with one hand and looking straight at the floor, "Thank you" Luke mumbled as he pulled the door open,

"For?" Ashton asked turning around,

"Giving me false hope" Luke was upset, but he was angry more than anything, he walked out the house and despite not knowing where he was going, he headed down the road,

"Luke! Wait!" Ashton called after him, "Please!!" Luke stopped walking and stood still, he felt Ashton's hand on his wrist, he pulled away and spun round in one swift movement,

"What do you want? You made everything quite clear." Luke snapped, this was the first time Luke had ever been this angry with Ashton, and Ashton could tell,

"You didn't let me finish.." Ashton said quietly grabbing Luke's hands,

"Finish then."

"I don't want to be with you. I need to be with you."