Chasing Ashton -Lashton Hirwin-

Chapter Thirty Three: Kissing teachers in libraries.

Chapter Thirty Three: Kissing teachers in libraries.

'Dear Diary, this is bullshit. I'm 17 I shouldn't be writing a fucking diary entry, therapist said it would help though, I dunno.
It's been, three weeks, since mum was put in hospital, since Ashton was put in hospital.
Who the fuck is Michelle anyway? Fucking Michelle. I don't understand!!
Forget it, I can't even be bothered to deal with this, I gotta prepare for the end of the year, assignments, prom, the end of college. Fresh start, I'm done with Ashton, I'm done with everything.
Done.
Mum's doing better, all her hair's fallen out, she's upset that she's gotta draw her eyebrows on and wear a wig and stuff, Ashton's, I don't even know how he is, I haven't spoken to him since Michelle turned up...Is that childish? He doesn't need me if he's got her, I didn't think he could be so perfect, I knew there had to be something wrong with hi-'

"Luke?! Door!" his mother shouted up the stairs, he rolled his eyes and closed the black leather bound book, slipping it under his pillow he stomped down stairs,
"I'm busy! I told you tha- Ashton.." he was taken back by seeing him stood there in the living room, "Uh, what are you doing here?"
"I came to see how you and your mum were doing" he smiled, his smile was so perfect and so genuine, Luke could see the hurt behind it though and that made him feel so guilty, "I talked to your mum, she said she was doing good so I'm glad everything's okay" Luke walked up to him and moved a strand of hair out of his face, "Thank you" Ashton whispered as he looked Luke in the eyes, there was something so wrong and the only thing he knew to do, was to hug him, so he did. Luke just stood there, arms by his side, whilst Ashton kept his arms around his neck,
"Hug me back, Luke, please" he begged, after a few minutes he felt Luke's hands rest on the bottom of his back, it was good enough. Ashton pulled away fast and just looked at him,
"I'm gonna leave, I'll see you at school tomorrow, don't forget your last assignment." Luke nodded and watched him leave the room, and then the house.
"Why'd you let him leave?" his mother asked, Luke looked at her and with a deep breath said,
"He moved on" he smiled and walked back up stairs.

"Morning class, I need your assignments in today and I don't want excuses either, this is the final one and if you want to pass you'll give it to me, now." Ashton said sternly, Luke was adding a few final lines to his when he realised someone was standing over him, he looked up to see Ashton stood in front of him looking extremely angry, "I'll take that" he demanded, everyone was staring,
I'm not finished yet, I've got like three more lines to do" Luke said looking back down at his work,
"I'll take that now please, Mr.Hemmings"
"In a sec, I just need to finish this?" Luke didn't understand his problem, he knew Ashton had to act like his teacher but this was a little over the top, Ashton took a deep breath as if trying to calm himself,
"Get out of my classroom" he demanded walking back to his desk,
"What? You're joking right?" Luke laughed a little,
"Now!" Ashton yelled as he slammed everyone but Luke assignments down on his desk, Luke looked around at everyone staring and sheepishly walked out. He'd taken his bag and assignment with him and skulked off to the library to finish it, he didn't bother going back to English, he didn't want to be yelled at again by someone who claimed to love him.

After a few hours he decided to go home, he had English all day today seeing as he'd passed and finished science and music there was nothing else for him to do, he packed his things and noticed, yet again, that someone was standing over him, his eyes travelled up the person but he knew exactly who it was, his heart started to race and his stomach flipped. "Thought I'd find you here" Ashton said quietly, "Can I sit?" he nodded towards the empty space next to Luke,

"Sure" Luke mumbled, Ashton handed him a cup and sat down, Luke gave it back to him but Ashton refused it,

"Thought you might like some tea" he smiled, Luke sipped the tea and tried to figure out what to say,

"Who's Michelle?" he blurted, Ashton looked confused then remembered the hospital,

"Oh, she's my cousin"

"She said she was your girlfriend"

"I know" Ashton twiddled his thumbs nervous to tell Luke what was really going on,

"You know? What? I'm so confused" Luke said putting the cup down and turning round to sit facing him, Ashton was leaning against a bookcase and had his legs out straight in front of him, Luke noticed the sad look on his face, "Ash?" Ashton began rolling his sleeves up and showed his wrists to Luke, at first glance there was nothing there, but upon a second look, "Scars.." Luke whispered, Ashton nodded and rolled his sleeves back down, there was a few minutes of silence before Ashton cleared his throat,

"I, well it's obvious what I used to do, Michelle was the only person that knew, didn't even tell my dad, she uh, used to pretend she was my girlfriend, we'd just hug and hold hands and stuff, never anything else, but yeah, stopped people bullying me so much" he explained, Luke put his hand on Ashton's leg and made him flinch, after a few minutes of yet more silence Luke started fiddling with papers,

"Here" he handed Ashton his assignment and smiled, "I'm sorry for earlier" Ashton took it from him and flung his arms around him pulling him close,

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled or thrown you out or anything, I'm so sorry" he kissed up Luke's neck, "I'm real, sorry" and then kissed his cheeks, "Forgive me" and then kissed him. Luke was wrapped up in kissing his teacher in the middle of the library, before he even knew what was going on. "Forgive me" Ashton whispered,

"'course I do you moron, you're my teacher, I expect random and shitty outbursts from you, at least you're not treating me like your favourite or something" Luke smiled,

"Why would I do that?" Ashton had never looked so confused before,

"Well, I mean, 'cause we're dating, you might" Luke's explanation was sketchy but he was sure Ashton would know what he meant,

"But you're not?"

"Uh, what?"

"You're not my favourite, Liam's my favourite" Ashton smirked, Luke hit his chest,
"You know what I mean" Ashton laughed and kissed him again,

"You gonna come back for last lesson? Got some stuff to go over about signing off and then prom" Luke nodded.

Things were looking up.