08/2/19
i said something unforgivable.
hundreds of people.
i watched my notifications.
10+. 40+. 80+. 200+. i didn't know what to do. that was my breaking point. George must've figured that our himself as well. he's too good for me.
he offered me comfort despite my words, he loved me. alot. he told me that he doesn't care about what i said, he would love me unconditionally. and i took advantage of it.
it was falling morning once he reached out. we talked, he's so forgiving. he had to sleep, i promised him that we could talk the next day. 400+ notifications. when he went to bed i wrote him a paragraph.
about my true feelings. i had a hard time showing my love. so i told him. i told him everything, why i did it, and how much i truly care for the boy.
after that i deactivated. with no intention to talk to him again. i had to get him away from me.
i cant ruin him.
i love him, so much, it hurts but i cant fight it. it hurt so much. by the time he awoke again he instinctively noticed. i had made a new account. under a new name.
i would watch from afar. i needed to make sure he would be doing ok. i broke him.
