Bearing The Billionaire Heir (ELEAZAR #1)

CHAPTER 26: TRIGGERED

KEISHA

As I look onto him he literally look like that he will be explode anytime, his eyes was full of angriness and hatred. It sucks that i can't do anything to make and help him calm! I just let him explode.
He punch the steering wheel countless of times and he didn't even care about me seating next to him how could he can't calm, how could he able to push my hands that keep on trying to reach his hand to make him calm! I want to burst out my angered mukhang hindi naman nito mapapansin kung aalis man ako ngayon. And i did i get out of the car, while him he just keep on punching the steering wheel.

Gusto kong magpuyos sa galit but i just can't ang unfair lang! Why i am feeling hurt knowing that there's still some things that can make him forget about me! And i know what it is! Business and his tons of money! Akmang tatawid na ako sa pedestrian lane ng may humila sa kamay ko kung kaya't napaharap ako rito.
"What!"
"Keisha please wag ka nang sumabay pa, something just came up wag ka nang dumagdag pa sa mga iisipin ko!" Parang gusto ko siyang sampalin sa sinabi nito ang lakas ng loob niyang pagsalitaan ako! He should say to me that he was busy hindi yung pababayan na lang niya ako na ganito!

"Ang kapal mo din eh ano! Alam mo naiinis ako sayo i want to burst out onto angered dahil sa ginawa at sinabi mo! But i can't Colten cause i'm still and keep on tryin to understand you at ikaw itong madalas idaan sa init ng ulo!"

"Cause you are stubborn Keisha! Will you just please shut up! Give me a peace of mind i still have a lot of business to do right now and it's more important. I'm fucking sick with babysitting the woman who has a bastard son!" Tuluyan na akong hindi nakapagpigil dahil sa sinabi nito! Napakawalang hiya niya how could he insult my son in front of me! I can still handle if he call me whore or bitch but calling my son a bastard was out of the line! Pakiramdam ko oa siya kilala and Kuya Keifer was right, we shouldn't take everything that easy and fast. I look at him with full of angered and guiltiness also for my innocent son.

"My son is not bastard you are the bastard! And i am going to give your peace of mind asshole!" Sinampal ko ito dahil sa sobrang galit na nararamdaman ko i can't handle too much emotion it kills me i can't breath! Walang lingon lingon akong tumakbo kahit bumubusina na ang ilang sasakyan but i just don't mind!

I feel so numb and lost.
Hindi ko magawang pigilan ang kumakawalang luha sa mata ko palakas na ng palakas ang dibdiba and i starting to have rapid breathing. Napahinto ako ng makaradam ng sakit sa dibdib ko it just so hurt, i keep on tryin to calm myself to ease the pain but it seems like i already lose of control over my emotions.

Why do i feel like i betray? Why do i feel like neglected? I don't know how to suppress my feelings it just that it hurts anymore. I try hard to calm down but i always end up sobbing and punching my chest. At my entire life it was the second time that my Emotion Dysregulation attacked. Emotion Dysregulation is whe you can't control or manage your emotions that will lead to impulsive emotional actions that will cause pain and problems.

The first time is when i was a kid and there's a man that keep insisting that he was our father but my mother didn't deny it. Ng mga panahong iyong naglalaban ang emosyon ko, if i could believe on him or not. I also want to answer a lot of question to him. Why did he leave us? I was one of the witnessed on how my mother suffer from depression because of too much debt to pay.

Walang wala kami ng mga panahon na iyon, at ang mas masakit pa we never celebrate at any occasion na kumpleto kami. Pero kahit kailan hindi pinaramdam iyon sa amin ni mama na kulang kami. She always fulfill the space on our hearts that supposed to be for our father, but he left us. And until now i still don't know every single thing about him.

"Hey Miss you okay?"

"D-do you think i'm okay!" I look at the man kneeling in front of me with my eyes full of tears nanlalabo na rin ang paningin ko dahil sa mga luha na namumuo sa mata ko.

"Your having a hard breathing!" Hinang hina ako at hindi na nakapalag ng buhatin ako nito at mabilis na kumilos, he was struggling carrying me i can't feel the fast beat of his heart, he was nervous.

"H-help me please!" Ng maibaba ako nito he go to the driver seat and drive fastly. Hindi ko na alam ang sunod na nangyari dahil tuluyan na akong nawalan ng malay, i just woke up on the hospital hindi na ako nagtaka ng ilibot ko ang paningin ko nakita ko ito sa hamba ng pinto at mag kausap sa cellphone.

"Just cancel my meeting for this day something came up. Yeah i understand, i will go late there i really need to do something important more than that" napakagat ako sa labi ko, mukhang nakaabala pa ako. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung paano ko siya haharapin, ng humarap ito nagtama ang paningin namin and he smiled at me widely.

"You already awake Miss" lumapit ito sa gawi ko, tsaka ko lang napansin ang mga pagkain roon may prutas, kanin at ulam roon. Nakakahiya na talaga he put too much effort pwepwede naman niya akong iwanan na lang rito and left his contact so i could contact him to turn the favor for his kindness.

"S-salamat" hindi ako makatingin rito dahil sobra itong makatitiga and he was still smiling widely. Hindi ba ito nakakahalata na naiilang na ako!

"Sorry i just can't leave my gaze on you, you look familliar" napakunot noo ako dahil sa sinabi nito napatigil rin ako sa pagkagat sa mansanas na hawak ko.

"Maybe we met on some gatherings or what, your not familliar to me" he chuckled a bit at lumapit sa gawi ko at ginulo ang buhok. What? Is he insane feeling close lang.

"I'm sorry but i really need to go" tumayo ako at tinanggal ang dextrose na nakakabit sa akin, they use oxygen mukhang malala ang naging pag atake ng emotion dysregulation ako. At wala akong balak ipaalam iyon kahit kanino man lalo na kay mama dahil mag aalala lang siya. And to my kuyas paniguradong hindi nila ako tatantanan sa pagtatananong kung sino ang dahilan why my emotions suddenly breakdown.

For all the things he say and the way he insult my son why do i still care and think of him!

"Are you sure you can manage?" Napapikit ako dahil sa kakulitan nito hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses na niyang tinanong iyan!

"Hey mister i really appreciate your effort your kindness for helping me. Malaki ang utang na loob ko sayo, i will give you my contact so i can turn the favor for your kindness. Ayokong magkautang na loob sa stranger" i smiled at him he look so shock on what i said but he get the paper on my hand where i write my number.

"I'm Kairon...Kairon Lex Saavedra"

"Keisha" dumaan pa ako sa isang tsore so i can buy something for my son. Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na buntong hininga ng makaratinga ako sa bahay i supposed to surprise my son whose hiding on the door pero napahinto ako ng marinig ang boses ng dalawa kong kuya na mukhang seryosoa ang pinag uusapan.

"I know something was bothering you Keifer, tell me what is it. The way you treat Colten it just that parang nag iba" i heard kuya keifer sigh heavinly, hindi pa rin ako napapansin ni Noah.

"I a-already know who's the father of my nephew and i was shock. I don't know anymore naguguluhan ako. But when the DNA test result came my doubt suddenly ease. He was the father of Noah Arkanghel" tila natulos ako sa narinig.

Who? Who is the father of my son!? I don't know but i was afraid and nervous to know the truth!