Negan x reader

pt.23

HEY! Quick warning this chapter contains gore. This warning is brought to you by your author who for somereason found the "you got no guts" scene really attractive. If any of that is just not for you then I suggest waiting till my next chapter. Also lots of creative license because I never saw the full episode. Don't judge me.
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Kinda pissed that the guy interrupted Negan and I, but I'll act civil. The man Negan had been talking to introduced himself as Spencer. I politely shook his hand then grabbed my parasol before heading out with the two men. When I got out on the porch I sat on the steps with my legs crossed. People were brought to watch and my half brother stood on the porch with a woman in glasses wearing a blue cardigan. Negan got a drink and winked over at me. I smiled and looked down at the ground. Carl tapped me ok the shoulder. "Come stand with me and Olivia." He says quietly. I shrug and get up. "Fine. Only because she's cute and seems nice." I smile and lean back on the support beam. Olivia looked at me and I smiled at her. "You're (y/n)?" She whispers and I nod. "Yeah. Olivia?" I ask and she nods.

After that short interaction I go back to watching my partner play pool with Spencer. They get to talking and I decided to pay attention this time as I hear my bio dad's name. "So talk to me Spencer, talk to me about Rick." Negan says as I tilt my head slightly. "I get what you're trying to do here. What you're trying to build? Not saying I agree with your methods, but I get it. You're building a network. You're trying to get people to contribute for the greater good. Makes sense." Spenser says. "But you should know that Rick Grimes has a history of not working well with others." Spencer continues. What is that supposed to mean? "Mm. Is that so?" Negan hums and I sit on the railing of the porch to pay better attention. "Rick wasn't the original leader here. My mom was." Oh shiiiiiit. "She was doing a really good job of it." Then where's your momma? "She died. Not long after Rick showed up." Oop. I stop myself from laughing at my internal dialog. Well atleast ya gotta have some family, right? "Same with my brother, same with my dad." I spoke too soon.

"So everything was peachy here for what? Years? Then Rick shows up and suddenly you're an orphan." Negan says before taking a sip of his drink. "Thay is the saddest story I've ever heard." Negan continues sarcastically. I chuckle but stop myself feeling that it would be inappropriate. "Good thing for you, he's not incharge anymore." Anothet little smile crawls across my face as Negan says that. Spencer pipes up again. "Doesn't matter. His egos out of controll. He'll find a way to screw things up. To try and do things his way, to take over. That's what he did with my mom. That's what he'll do again." I watch and find myself biting the inside of my cheek. I'd deal with that later though. Negan's quiet for a second before taking another sip then looking at Spencer. "What exactly are you proposing be done about that?" Negan asks Spencer. Something in me was saying 'this is your out guy. Take it.' The other part just wanted to see what was going to happen. Spencer takes a step closer to Negan before talking. "I am my mother son. I can be the leader she was." What in the restore my honor? "That's what this place needs. That's what you need." Spencer finishes and I look around. Is everyone else hearing this too?

"So I should put you in charge?" Negan says semi quietly. "That's what you're saying." Well Spencer it was nice knowing ya, cause you gonna be seeing your momma real soon if you keep this up. "We'd be much better off." Spencer smiles. Why does he smile like a weird cat? I stop myself from laughing at my inside voice again and look at Negan. His dimples when he smiles are so cute. Wait why's he smiling? Oh shit. Someone's gonna die. He walks around the pool table and Spencer like a shark in the water. "Ya know, I'm thinking Spencer. I'm thinking how Rick threatened to kill me. How he clearly hates my guts. But he is out there right now, gathering shit for me. To make sure I don't hurt any of the fine people that live here." Negan states and I begin to fidget with my parasol. "He is swallowing his hate and gettin shit done. That takes guts." I squint at Negan. You sure are bringing up guts a lot. What are you doing babe? I watch as he knocks another ball into one of the pockets. Setting down his pool que Negan steps closer to Spencer. "And then there's you." Ooooh Spencer you fucked uuuup. "The guy that waited for Rick to be gone so he could sneak over and talk to me. To get me to do his dirty work so he could take Rick's place." Negan steps even closer to Spencer and I feel slightly anxious but also slightly aroused by watching Negan be this way. "So I gotta ask." Negan continues. "If you wanna take over, why not just kill Rick yourself and just. Take. Over." Negan, darling, what are you planing? "What? No, no, I didnt." Spencer stutters trying to back track. Leaning forward slightly I watch Negan start to become more irritated. "You know what I'm thinking? Cause I have a guess." Negan pauses and glances over at everyone before looking back at Spencer. "It's because, you got no guts." I heat him whisper before stabbing his knife into Spencer's stomach. Olivia gasps and my eyes widen. Everyone is practically frozen as Negan slices and Spencer's intestines spill out. Something in my just found this strange satisfaction watching Spencer hold his organs. Negan had bloon splatter on his face and I swear, I thought he was attractive before, but right now? I'd let this man ruin me. Negan stands over Spencer as he bleeds out and smirks. "How embarrassing. There they are they were inside you the whole time. You did have guts. I've never been so wrong in ny whole life!" Negan barks at the crowd and looks with a smirk over at me.

What's wrong with me? Why am I attracted to this?! Am I really that fucked up mentally?! A blush flushes my face as Negan bites his lip looking at me. "Come on. I was winning." Negan smiles holding Lucille proudly. My smile quickly goes away as I watch a woman pull a gun out on him. "No!" I scream out and close my eyes. "Shit! What the shit?!" Negan starts shouting. I open my eyes to see him safe. The bullet had hit Lucille. The girl was pinned to the ground by one of the saviors and I looked to see Oliva and Carl ducked down. "You tried to kill me?! Infront of my (y/n)?! You shot Lucille!" He raises the bat and the girl from from ground says. "She got in the way." I get pissed and feel that anger I inhareted from my momma. I tell Olivia and Carl to stay down before getting up dropping the parasol. Walking over I stand over the woman and look down. With a stone face I tell the savior to move the knife up to her face before kicking the girl in the ribs. Negan takes a deep breath and picks up the bullet. Coming up he pulls me into his arms as I go to kick her again. "That's enough darlin. I need her talking." He tells me and I hug him. "She shot at you?! You could have been killed?!" I start crying and negan holds me close for a second. "I'm ok. You go over by the kid." He motions for me to stand over by Carl and I do so. Negan starts yelling at the girl about the bullet and who made it because it was obviously homemade.

I started zoning out and needing to take deeper breaths as I sat next to Oliva. Carl looked over at me as I was digging my nails into my hands.