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Sebastian's POV:

As soon as I woke up, I was desperate to see Anastasia. To talk to her. To tell her I was sorry and to see if her and our baby were ok. Now that I had time to think about it, my guilt was weighing me down. It was suffocating me. I was intoxicated by these thoughts. I was the reason for this. For the danger I put my family in. I realise that they both mean so much to me, and to think that I flipped out over Ana and I's beautiful creation made me so goddamn mad at myself. I can't believe I treated my girl like that. I love her so much and I know I will love our baby as well. Even though I was too afraid to admit it before.

Sawyer left my room in a hurry and was muttering Anastasia's name all the way down the hall and into her hospital room. I knew she was in trouble but I couldn't help. I would do more harm than good and deep down I knew waiting for her here would be better. Let's just hope that Sawyer can get to her in time. I need her. I can't live without her.

Worrying the whole time, I was practicing what I was going to say to Anastasia. I was holding onto the small box that I was supposed to give her that evening on the mountain but things took a turn for the worse and Marco Rodriquez is the man responsible. I needed to let her know. But what I should've said before blacking out was "I love you", not his stupid name.

"Oh god Sebastian you fucked up. You always fuck up. You're just like your father." I scolded myself as hot tears welled up in my eyes, threatening to spill.

"No" I shook my head, breaking my trance. "Focus."

"Shit" I whispered as I laid my head in my hands, worrying about my girl. What was happening?? Why was Sawyer so frantic? Fuck.

I can't do anything except sit here helplessly and wait. I had to hope for the best. That's the only thing I could do right now. I can't even fathom to think about another scenario. I wanted her back here safely. But I couldn't calm down.

"GODDAMNIT THAT SHOULD BE ME GOING AFTER HER." I slammed my fist on the night stand several times as my hands started to bleed. I was a wreck. I just want her in my arms. God what have I done.

Before I lost consciousness for the second time, I vividly remember Anastasia push me out of the car before it caught fire. She risked everything for me. My future wife. The mother of our child. My whole world. This is what I need to tell her as soon as I see her again but when I start talking while looking into her deep blue eyes, I know I'm going to lose it. I'm going to fumble on my words and she won't know how I truly feel about her. That she is what makes me want to wake up every morning and be a better man for the first time in forever. I used to wake up and go straight to my job, killing people mercilessly but now, I find myself thinking of everything they have to lose by dying even if they deserve to die.

I would begin by apologising to Anastasia. I needed to let her know that I support her regardless of my outburst.

Anastasia's POV:

Sawyer drove me back to the hospital as I sat in the back seat, traumatised. But all I wanted to see was the love of my life. Sebastian. He was finally awake. I would risk everything to be able to see him again, to inhale his intoxicating scent which I loved. I knew he would love our baby regardless. I was so excited for him to see my belly for the first time. I was only a couple of weeks so I wasn't too big but you could slightly tell.

As we pulled up at the hospital, my eyes lit up at the sight, for the first time ever. My tear-stained cheeks became pink instantly at the thought of him. I had been through a lot while he was unconscious, but I had already put it behind me. Nothing mattered but our family right now.

I ran through the doors, heading to his room. Number 444, which Sawyer told me. I didn't know where Sawyer actually was. He was probably trying to keep up with me. I giggled at the thought.

Excited, I stopped in front of the large door with '444' written above it. I sighed happily, smiling as I pushed it open.

"S-Sebastian? Are you there my love?" I looked around, searching for his manly figure. I was confused however, when I couldn't see him. Sawyer quickly followed me in, out of breath.

"I think I'll just.. c-catch a breather outside.. Ana." Sawyer said as he coughed, walking back out of Sebastian's room. I rolled my eyes sarcastically and continued with what I was doing.

This was it.

But where was he?

"Seb?" Huh? Why's his bed empty? Suddenly the door closed behind me, making me jump a little.

"Looking for me, angel?" Finally. I heard the voice I missed. The voice that meant everything to me. I turned around, biting my lip in anticipation. My eyes widened as I looked into those hazel eyes I adored.

"Sebastian." I whispered.

"Yes, I'm right here beautiful." He said softly as he tucked my hair behind my ear. I wrapped my arms around him quickly, as I sobbed in his embrace.

"I- I missed you so much. I love you. You have no idea how happy I am that you're awake." I muttered. He wrapped his arms around me tighter as his chin rested on my head.

"I love you too baby. I'm so glad you're ok. I'm so sorry... so so sorry."

We both stood there for awhile just crying in each other's company.

After a few minutes, he let go and looked into my eyes with sincerity. He looked serious.

Sebastian's POV:

"Anastasia. I need to tell you a million things but first, I need to apologise. The whole reason why you got hurt in the first place is because of me. I was so caught up in the fact that I was going to become a father. But I didn't take into consideration how you must be feeling about this all. In the beginning, I knew you were the one for me. And now, as we start our family together, I want you to know that I'm all in. I will try to be the best partner and father I can to you and our little baby," I said as I rested my hand on her belly, "I promise to love you, both of you. Now and forever. Until the day I die. Because Anastasia-" I got onto one knee, "will you make me the happiest man alive and marry me?" I opened the box and we were both sobbing.

"Sebastian, I can't even- I- I don't know what to say. I love you so much and I know you are going to be the best dad ever. And... YES I'LL
MARRY YOU!" She burst out in tears as I slipped the ring onto her finger. It fit perfectly.

My life was complete.

"I will do everything I can to be a better man than my father. Thank you for everything, my love" I was still on my knees and I leaned in close to her belly, "and I can't wait to meet you baby." I kissed her stomach softly as I was filled with love. From my soon to be wife and child. This is more than I could've ever imagined. I was on cloud nine. I was the happiest man on earth.

"I love you, Sebastian."

"I love you more, Anastasia."