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Anastasia's POV:

I groaned as I heard Lola crying profusely, almost screaming. I was so beyond tired, but I had to go get her. I looked over to our nightstand. 1:30am. My god, it's only been a few hours? People always told me that newborns need to be fed every couple of hours, so it seemed reasonable but I was just so exhausted and would kill for a full night of sleep. I untangled myself from Sebastian's grip and sat up slowly, holding my throat as it ached slightly after the blowjob I gave him.

"Baby, no. You need to rest." I heard out of nowhere. I was disoriented due to extreme fatigue, and couldn't make out whether I was hearing things or someone actually spoke to me. That's when I felt a strong pair of arms wrap around my torso, forcing me to lie back down.

"I've got it." Sebastian said with his deep morning voice.

"I- oh." I spoke out, lying back down. Sebastian tucked me back in and went over to Lola to console her. I smiled at the sight, yet fell back asleep almost instantly. It had been a long day.

Sebastian's POV:

I wanted to prove myself as a dad. Unlike my own father, I wanted to always be there for my child, and grow a strong connection with my baby girl. I went over to her crib as soon as I tucked in Anastasia and saw her drift off back to sleep. I picked up my gorgeous angel, ceasing her screams and checked to see if she needed anything changed.

"What's wrong sweetheart? Daddy's here, shhh it's ok, daddy's here." I whispered in her little ear, kissing the side of her head. I went out of the room so she wouldn't wake up Ana, into the kitchen with her in my arms.

"You must be hungry, Lola Melody." I said, rocking her in my arms slightly, searching for her dummy and bottle Ana left in the fridge.

"You're lucky we finally picked out a middle name for you angel." I sweetly said while heating up her bottle in the bottle warmer. "It was a tough decision but Lola Melody De Luca sounds beautiful."

Once it was finished and Lola had calmed down a bit, I fed her the bottle while her little hands wrapped around mine. She looked into my eyes as she drank the milk, making me smile. She was truly a blessing to my life, a perfect daughter who symbolises Ana and I's love. She smiled slightly back at me around her bottle, her blue eyes wide with curiosity. She drank her bottle extremely fast, devouring every last drop.

"You must've been hungry little one. Now we have to go to sleep and not wake up mummy. Ok?" I said stroking her head. I grabbed her dummy and put it in her mouth, waiting for her to take it.

Before I tried to get her back to sleep, I changed her nappy so she could sleep comfortably. It was a little tricky doing it with minimal light but we managed and now she was nice and clean. I put her back into her onesie, beanie and mittens so she couldn't scratch her little face.

"Shhh" I whispered as I rocked her in my arms, humming to her slightly. I saw her eyes slowly closing as she became still, making cute little noises every now and then, which I adored. Rocking her into a deep sleep, I made my way back to Ana and I's room as I wanted to spend as much time with our daughter as possible. She should be good until around 4:30am now, which I will happily feed her again at.

I wrapped her back up in a tight swaddle, laying her down in the bassinet next to our bed and I was praying that she would stay asleep. I kissed her one last time, admiring her for a little before I returned to Anastasia.

Ana looked so peaceful and beautiful. I was worried for her state though, she would be so tired and drained. I shouldn't have allowed her to give me that blowjob, it probably didn't help her physically.

Thinking about that, I got up and went to get her a glass of water, placing it on her nightstand for when she wakes up. I'm sure her throat would hurt. I felt responsible for her condition, but knowing both my girls were home safely with me made me a happy man. I returned to Ana's side and hugged her tightly, wrapping myself around her small frame and inhaling her sweet vanilla scent, sending me straight to sleep.