Someone Like You

2

Warnings:
-Bullying (body shaming)

Clay's POV

I felt very lightheaded when I walked to the bus stop near my house to wait for the bus. I sat down on the benches while staring in front of me, wishing this headache to go away. Sapnap would most likely be in the bus too and he was absolutely not allowed to know my dad beat me up. I was a whole different person in school than I was at home.

I looked up at the bus coming closer and stood up, feeling really lightheaded as I remembered I didn't eat anything either this morning. I grasped onto the bench again and waited for the feeling to pass by, slowly walking closer to the bus.

The bus slowed down and I waited for the doors to open, going inside after that. I saw Sapnap sit in the back and I breathed out slowly, putting on a grin to act happy and cool again.

'Yo, dude!' Sapnap yelled through the bus. I rolled my eyes at him and walked up to him, sitting down after I hit his hat off his head.

He put his hat back on and chuckled. 'What's up, dude?' he asked as he gave me a fist bump which made me cringe.

'Nothing much, bored as hell this whole weekend.'

'Why didn't you come over to my place, dumbass?'

Because my dad beat the shit out of me, I thought, but I shrugged instead. 'I slept in, dude. My girlfriend asked me to come over tonight, so I guess we won't sleep much.'

'Pfft, you won't sleep because you're most likely doing other things,' he grinned as he winked at me.

I looked at my hands shortly, then I looked up slowly to act cool again. 'Dude, obviously.'

'Yeah, you do it every day with her if not more,' he chuckled. 'Bro, I'd beg for a relationship like yours.'

'Yeah, just because you're a horny teen who wants to have sex all day,' I answered with an eye roll and a slight laugh.

'As if you aren't, idiot. You're the one who actually does it. I just have to live with myself.'

I stared at my hands, seeing a flashback from what happened between my girlfriend and me last week. I didn't want to think about it, I knew I would cry and I could absolutely not cry in front of my friends in whatever scenario.

'Jealousy is a bitch,' I told him as I wheezed. 'Dude, there's so many hopeless girls in the school, just go up to one of them and do it with her.'

'Yeah, but they all drool when you walk next to them. They want you, every single one of them,' he sighed.

'Not my fault, dude. Can't help it that I've been born as the hottest guy in this school.'

I actually despised how I looked. I knew I was probably handsome since everyone told me that, but I definitely wouldn't say so myself.

'Your girlfriend is so lucky.'

I really wanted him to stop talking about her now. I didn't want to be with her at all, no one knew what she did to me which I wanted to keep that way too.

'I guess,' I mumbled, trying to stop the conversation. Sapnap didn't get the hint at all and kept talking about her. I started biting the insides of my cheeks and poked my nails in the palm of my hand the longer he went on about her.

Once he stopped, I bit my cheeks so hard that a bloody taste filled my mouth. Sapnap laughed about something and I laughed too as I swallowed the blood away.

'Anyway, I didn't study for my test, dude. Please help me,' I switched the topic.

'Fine, idiot. I'm not writing it twice, though. That was enough one time.'

'Don't complain, idiot. I saved your ass when you skipped class once,' I scoffed. 'Just sit in front of me and let me look with you.'

'It's your own fault if you get caught.'

I rolled my eyes. 'You better not ditch me. I've never ditched you either, dumbass.'

He sighed when we noticed the bus slowed down again next to the bus stop. I looked outside and Sapnap laughed as he pointed to the door.

'It's that loser,' he chuckled as I looked up, seeing the unpopular guy named George walk in. I glared at him, but Sapnap didn't think it was enough.

⚠️ Bullying (body shaming)

'Just go read your stupid books, idiot! You can walk, you're fat and you could burn something.'

I saw George lifting his shoulders and bowing his head forwards, just like I used to do when my dad beat me up. I decided to not say anything bad to him when he sat down, playing with the keychain on his bag. It was a keychain with his name on it in graffiti kind of letters.

'So rude, George. You're taking two places at once? Oh shit, I thought it was your bag, but you're just incredibly fat. Pfft, my bad,' Sapnap yelled which caused everyone to look at George who sat on his seat, curled up.

He put his bag down on the floor and sat very closely against the window, looking down to see if he was touching the other chair too.

'It's not like this is any better, you're ugly as hell too,' Sapnap wheezed. 'You can hide that fat body of yours, but as long as we can still see your face, you'll never be left alone.'

I saw George getting more insecure within seconds and he looked around him to search for a way to hide himself. Eventually he pressed the button for the bus to stop and jumped up with his bag. The doors opened and George sped away, stepping out of the bus to walk the rest of it.

I felt guilty grow in my body and I stared at my feet with an upset face. He went too far like he usually did, but I couldn't drop my mask. No one could know how I really was so I needed to get along with it. Even though this was actually just way too far...

'Shit,' I acted. 'I forgot something at home!'

'What did you forget?'

I didn't answer him, pressed the button again and let the bus stop, jumping out of it when the doors opened. I waited for it to drive further and then ran back to go to George.

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