Divine

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Serendipity
(n.) finding something good without looking for it

I have the right to be mad right?

I have the right to be sad right?

Right?

He's my freaking father. I have the right to want or even need his love. He is suppose to be loving and literally everything for me but no now he is nothing to me.

Great I have daddy issues.

I pace around my room with literal tears running down my cheeks.

Why does he not love me?

Am I not good enough for him?

I scream as I grab the nearest object I have find , which happens to be a glass vase, and throw it at the wall behind me. My hands tangle themselves in my copper red box braids and I groan loudly.

"Why is this my life" I sink to the floor and cry into my hands as my body shakes uncontrollably.

Seconds later a pair of arms wrap around me and I'm pulled into a soft chest that smells like strawberries and vanilla. I immediately know it's Eve because that was her signature scent back when we were friends.

"I'm fine" I mumble, not wanting to be in front of people crying.

"Shut up Divine"

I sigh and let her hold me as I silently cry. The room was silent except to the fact she was humming softly in my ear. Not that I mind.

"Maybe I'm not meant to be loved" I say after some time.

Her humming stopped before her face was in front of mine, looking at me with a hard look.

"Don't you ever say that. Everyone is meant to be loved. No matter what any one tells you, you are deserving of love Divine." She then says making me smile lightly before nodding my head.

"Easier said than done love"

I stand up and detach myself from her before walking over to my bed to lay down with a huge sigh. "this day has already been emotionally exhausting and it's only ten o'clock."

Maeve laughs at that and sits on the edge of the bed. "for you and me both"

I look over at her seeing her looking out the window. "How have you been all these years?" I ask her as I sit up some to give her my full attention.

She looks at me. Damn those eyes.

"I been great I guess. Uh after you left I was in deep depression because you know" she pauses as she sighs lightly "I thought I was the reason you were never going to see your family again and that you hated me"

"I could never hate you Eve"

She smiles but it doesn't quite reach her eyes.

"Anyways I uh went to school just kind of not speaking to anyone and kinda distanced myself from everyone. Your sister actually started talking to me after you left and we became close but not really as close as you and me were though. She was nice though and it was nice talking to her. When I graduated, I went to University of San Francisco for creative writing."

"You always wanted to go there" I smile definitely proud of her for being able to live her dream.

"Yup when I got in I wanted to call you but I don't know I chose against it"

Damn

"But uh college is kind of a blur. I ended up hanging around the wrong crowd and was always at parties getting drunk or high. I barley even passed college to tell you the truth but o graduated with a bachelor's degree in journalism and mass communications."