TW: CHILD ABUSE, SELF HATRED, BULLYING, CAVETOWN
Often I am upset
I sat in my room crying i know I can't change myself but I need to I can't handle the uncomfort any longer.
That I cannot fall in love but I guess
Everyone is out there falling in love and I'm lying here crying my self to sleep evey night because I don't think I can feel these emotions
This avoids the stress of falling out of it
I feel like I've lost all my friends because I can't keep up with them and I never answer their messages and when I do It just seems rude
Are you tired of me yet?
I ask my brother Wilbur he's only younger than me by about 30 minutes but that doesn't change the fact that because of us all mother and father do is yell at each other
I'm a little sick right now but I swear
I think I've caught a cold or it was the beer father made me drink last night I'm not so sure
When I'm ready I will fly us out of here
I promised Will that once I am able to I will get us out of the hell whole we have to call home no matter what it takes
oooh~ oooh~ I'll cut my hair
I love my hair but it makes me look like a girl. I. Am. Not. A. Girl. No matter what mother and father say I am not a girl
oooh~ oooh~ to make you stare
mother and father went on a rage that I'm a girl and cutting my hair doesn't make me look girly-ish
oooh~ oooh~ I'll hide my chest
I may be a girl to my parents but I am not one I am a boy no matter what they say
And I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
There's got to be a way out. There has to be
ooh~ ooh~ ooh~ ooh~
Turn off your porcelain face
Stop trying to be perfect when you one inch from a panic attack all the time
I cant really think right now and this place
I hope Phil and Tommy would be okay with us staying for a bit until we could get a house or something
Has too many colours enough to drive all of us insane
Mother and Father never let anyone over unless they were any of their drinking mates or other family members but they were all the same with their homophobia, transphobia racism, and sadistic looks when Will and I are on the ground laying in blood puddles
Are you dead? sometimes I think I'm dead
Maybe this is all a dream and one day I'll wake up and we will all be a happy family with no hatred what so ever
Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
All the things they've said run through my head there was never a point in my memory where they were even the tiniest bit nice towards me or Wilbur and yet Will loves them no matter what
But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet
My head feels dizzy, I can't faint I have to stay awake for Will he's unprofessional without me they could do anything to him and I wouldn't know
oooh~ oooh~ my eyes went dark
Shit.
oooh~ oooh~ oooh~ I don't know where
Will better not get hurt I swer
oooh~ my pupils are
I need to wake up. For Will, for Will
But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here
I'll message Phil and Tommy they won't say no, will they?
get a load of this monster
they're right I am a monster it's probably why mother snd father hate me soo much
She doesn't know how to communicate
schools not that bad I guess, I mean there are the transphobes but there isn't a lot of them so only a few people really say anything about it
His mind is in a different place
I'm so scared that the teachers may think to call home that I don't even realise that everyone talks about me, they may support me pronoun wise but they don't support me any other way
Will everybody please give him a little bit of space
Even fucking Dream wastaken stands up for me and pretty sure if he had the chance he would try and kill me
Get a load of this train wreck
They started bullying Wilbur after finding out we are related I feel bad for him like he's another person to add to the list of 'people I've disappointed/hurt'
His hairs mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
Hey atleast they don't hurt him here aswell who knows what would happen if they do that
But little do we know the stars welcome them with open.....
I dont know how people would react if they were to find out about what our parents were doing to us but I'm not ready for them to find out aswell
Get a load of this monster
so I let them pick at me and bully me because I'm too weak to stop them at this point
he doesn't know how to communicate
I'm weak.
His mind Is in a different place
I'm not strong enough to make it out alive
will everybody please give him a little bit of space
They'll kill us both soon enough
Get a load of this train wreck
Tommy and Phil said we could stay. They asked us why but we can't tell them yet I'm not ready
His hairs a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet
After a while of staying with them we decided to move in and tell that what had happened
But little do we know the stars welcome him with open arms~
Mother and Father were sent to prison with 20 year sentences
Time is slowly, tracing his face but strangely he feels at home in this place
the end......
-----
hiya beautiful
have a drink and eat something if you havent already xxxx
love you!
