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TW. DEATH, ED, GRIEF, SADNESS, DADNOBLADE ANGST




I don't wanna talk right now

It's been three days since he got the call. it was inevitable. He knew it'll happen but it hurt even more now its happened

I just wanna watch TV

He wants to do something to forget about him. He wouldnt want him to be like this but what does the man whos dead get to say about this when he doesnt know what its like since he's the one dead

I'll stay in the pool and drown

He thinks maybe if i drown I'll be with him he knows it wont work but it would be better than being trapped alone in a house without being able to bother his favourite person

So I don't have to watch you leave

Yes he knows he shouldve said goodbye when he was asked to but he couldnt bring himself to let the person he loves leave so early

I put on Survivor just to watch somebody suffer

He watched up as it was their favorite movie to watch together. how was he supposed to explain to his fans why hes suddenly so obsessed with a film thats been out for years

Maybe I should get some sleep

The nights hes stayed up crying because of his dads death have become outnumbered. the number goes into the billions and it hasnt even been that long

Sinking in the sofa while they all betray each other

The servers a mess. He knows they all deal with grief in their own ways but he needs his friends and they arent there

What's the point of anything?

He questions his life daily. Staying at his grandparents has been hard but he knows that they dont mean to be rude theyre just grieving aswell and maybe if something were different his dad wouldnt be dead.

All of my friends are missing again

Slowly all his friends stopped messaging and all he could think is great im loosing them aswell he knows he souldnt but he cant help it

That's what happens when you fall in love

He loved his dad. He loves his dad. He'll love his dad forever in life or death he just wishes the time together was longer.

You don't have the time, you leave them all behind

Time is such a stupid concept. it takes the people you love away from you without letting you spend more time woth them

You tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love

The love was platonic obviously but he still loved his dad so much that it felt like his heart was being crushed in his hand like something from OUAT

Don't know where you are right now

Tommy wishes his dad could see him he'd be so proud of him for making it so far without him but he probably cant see him. Tommy knows its not like spectator mode but goddamn he wishes it was

Did you see me on TV?

Even though Tommy was dealing with the death of his best friend, his dad, the other side to the bedrock duo he still stood on that stage and performed for his fans the best ever

I'll try not to starve myself

He stopped eating for a while but that was picked up on quickly by his grandparents because of their wierd obsession with making sure eveyone ate. it was wierd but he was grateful that it existed.

Just because you're mad at me

He knows Techno would be mad at him for not eating but he also knows he'd be grateful for his parents to notice.

And I'll be in denial for at least a little while

denial. yes its a stage of grief but that doesn't change the feeling that hes not dead and that its just one massive prank and he'll show up back at home at some point and everything will go back to normal

What about the plans we made?

They never got to go to disneyland and universal, visit dream and have a 4/4 sbi meetup and now itll be a 3/3 sbi meetup

The internet's gone wild watching movie stars on trial

The world around us is going to shit and then his dad straight up goes and dies

While they're overturning Roe v. Wade

you want an abortion? no thats illegal. if its illegal to kill a baby whats next? its illegal for someone to die? theyll be arresting his dads dead corpse soon

Now all of my friends are missing again

even his friends wont talk to him. the worlds against him he knows it

'Cause that's what happens when you fall in love

he loved his dad but now hes dead and the people around him can't even be there for him

You don't have the time, you leave them all behind

He just put on an invisible mask and acts like hes fine because he is fine. he always has been. he always will be. He's Tommyinnit ofcourse he's alright.

And you tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love

He's gonna get over it. its just death its normal to happen

And I don't get along with anyone

Everyone he once got on with have become cold towards him Hes just a reminder of a man that once stood but is now 6feet under

Maybe I'm the problem

It's all his fault that his dads dead. he keeps telling himself

Maybe I'm the problem

the problem is him it always will be no matter whats happening he's the problem.

Hello my lovelies <3

im sorry if you cried :( i cried aswell. a. lot.

go stream TV by Billie Eilish its awsome. i heard her sing it live and the chills i get hearing it now when its released is scary but awsome (the ending jjshebdusbsn)

bye i love you all <33333

remember to eat and drink <3

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