// nineteen // michael //
There isn't a way to explain the way I'd felt. I felt mistreated and unwanted and isolated all together. I was scared for the sake of my happiness.
I was an outcast until he came and though I hated him for so long, he made me feel so much better. It had never occurred to me that he would leave. The words don't sound right together in a sentence. Yet as much as I want him right now, I don't even want to see him. He came knocking on my door early this morning, probably to tell me goodbye, but I didn't want him in my mind. As much as my mother called me to come downstairs, I refused.
He left and I watched Ashton's car pull out of the garage and into the street with Luke in the passenger seat. He stared up at my window, he could tell that I was there as he mouthed the words 'I'm sorry' behind his tears.
Ash didn't come back for 2 hours, Luke was gone and Ashton entered the house, never expecting to come out.
I spent the nights crying, trying to make sense of the situation. I didn't go to school, I felt to much like shit to leave the house and be around people.
It just didn't make any fucking sense. He had so much here in Melbourne, he had 5 Seconds of Summer, he had Ashton, and Calum, and he had me.
The only reason that I could think of him going to his mum was that Ashton did something that was simply the last straw. But I thought that Ash had changed, he wouldn't do something like that after all that we've been through will one another.
It was all stupid and disappointing, my head was heavy and vision was fuzzy. I saw the world differently, and I hated it. I hated the new, lonely, boring, world I was in, but I couldn't get out of it.
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Static Sound (Muke)
Fanfiction" there comes a time when you look at someone in the eyes and just realise for the first time that everything is going to go perfectly fine. "
