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I wish I was dead

Not specifically dead but non-existent.

I don't want to be perceived

I don't want to exist in others minds

I'm already here so the only thing I can ask for is death.

I won't do it myself

How selfish of me to take my own life

To leave my mother in tears after she worked so hard to make me

After I brought her so much joy when I was little

To leave my father who's trying so hard to make sure I'm happy throughout my life

To leave my brother who had been my best friend since his birth.

How can you have a role model who took their own life?

To leave my friends who care for my well being.

For them to be the ones to find my body.

I wish for accident.

Car crash

Robbery gone wrong

Accidental drowning

Caught in a house fire

Something out of my power so my death will be less sad

Sometimes life would be easier if I didn't exist.

My existence causes pain and inconvenience to others

To myself

I wish I was dead.