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I crave academia.

I wish my brain worked in the ways of my professors, my classmates.

To analyze literature--

To write literature

Like a scholar

would be a dream

I wish I was academic

I don't understand what's holding me back.

Was I never meant to live in a lifetime where intelligence is valued over all?

Sometimes I wonder if I were to live in the nineteenth or twentieth centuries would I, as I am, be considered academic?

Then I look at the works of

Oscar Wilde

Emily Dickenson

Sylvia Plath

Henry David Thoreau

and realize that no, I would be another average woman like I already am.