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i ruin things
i ruin everything i touch
school
my job
potential relationships
i screw it up
i don't know why i won't allow myself to just be happy
i have to sabotage every good feeling i have.
i have to overthink
i have to push people away
the littlest change in someone's tone sends me down a spiral
i fucked up i can feel it
i don't understand why i can't get over my fear of rejection
i shut down
i hurt myself in more ways than anyone else can.