The Nights We Felt Alive

Chapter 2- I'll Always Remember to Never Forget You

Jack POV:

– Flashback 7 years ago in high school –

We were both seniors in high school, best friends even. I knew Alex since 8th grade, and I always had a thing for him. I was not going to deny it, I was either gay or bisexual. I knew that, because I had feelings for my best friend and I was undeniably in love with him. It just seemed like he was straight, there was always a girl he was with but never for a long amount of time. He had been without a relationship for over five months now, and I was genuinely curious. We had already spent a ton of time together but now it seemed he wanted to be around me even more. I tried to deny it, but it just grew harder and harder with time.

"Hey, mom I'm going to go to Alex's for the weekend again," I smiled running downstairs.

"Okay Jack, be good to Peter and Isobel," She sighed as she kissed my cheek as I ran out the door.

I nodded and started up my car. We only lived about a ten-minute drive away from each other, so we saw each other a bunch. Alex tended to get lonely a lot, his parents were at work most of the time we just had the house to ourselves. I arrived at his house eventually and knocked on the door. I was greeted by him, waving as he opened the screen door. He was stunning, I was always in awe of him and he always managed to look great. Alex always wore a pair of skinny jeans, which hugged his body perfectly. He usually wore a random t-shirt sitting around his room, but today he just wore a hoodie. I smiled as he opened the door, and he let me in quickly.

"Hey JB, thanks for coming over. Do you wanna do anything specific?" He smiled sitting down on the couch.

"Up to you, I just came to hang out with you," I laughed sitting down next to him.

"Well there is this party we could go to at Rian's it starts in an hour," He shrugs.

"Yeah I guess we could, we could walk there if you want. His house is only a street down," I shrug.

Alex nodded, and he looked at his outfit and raised an eyebrow. "Do you think I should change?"

"Nah you look good Alex you're fine," I smiled relaxing on the couch.

Alex nodded, and eventually, we started walking to Rian's house. His house was somehow already full of people, and music was blaring right when you walked in. I didn't know Rian as well as I knew Zack, but we were all friends in some sort of way.

"Hey, guys! Glad you made it," Rian laughed, hugging us both. I could already smell the alcohol in his breath, and so could Alex. "Help yourself to whatever," He laughed, already moving on to new people coming in.

"Jack I don't like all these people," He muttered moving closer to me.

"I didn't know that Rian knew so many people, but is it okay just stay close? I'll get us some drinks," I smiled, linking my arm to his. He laughed, and we walked to the kitchen and I grabbed us two beers and I knew Alex had a thing for vodka so I just took the bottle. "Where do you wanna go?" I asked him.

"Dancing is fun," He laughed as he held the vodka bottle to his lips.

I laughed and we ran to the makeshift dance floor in Rian's living room. Given the short span of an hour, we both were already drunk and dancing on tables. I remember him pushing me against one of the front windows, and falling on top of me.

"Alex what are you doing," I laughed as I held onto him for stability.

"I don't know Jacky, but we should ditch the party and go on a walk," He laughed as he sipped out of the vodka bottle that is now almost empty between the two of us.

"I want to goooooo," He slurred laughing and nuzzling himself in my chest.

I laughed, and I knew Alex got wasted way less than me but I was a little bit tipsy. Alex collapsed on me, and I somehow stumbled with him out the door. He could barely walk, and I honestly was surprised I hadn't fallen yet.

"Jacky stay with me tonight," He begged, tugging my arm, making me almost lose balance almost completely.

"Mhmmm," I slurred as I limped to the front door of his house. "Where is your key Alex?" I asked him.

"Back pocket," He slurred, holding onto me tighter.

I nodded and reached into his back pocket. It felt strange touching his ass for the first time. My cheeks grew red as I unlocked the door, and then eventually grew redder as I carried him up the stairs. I sat him down on the bed and stumbled next to him.

"Jacky I don't feel good," Alex muttered as he accidentally vomited only a ¼ of what he drank that night onto himself.

"Alex," I groan, accidentally puking on myself too. It's a tendency for me, if I see something gross like that I automatically puke.

"I'm sorry," He said, starting to cry.

"Hey shh it's okay don't cry uhm I'll take you to the bathroom and help you okay?" I said standing up and helping him up. He nodded, and I sat him down on the counter and I grabbed a few washcloths and some of the body wash he had in the shower. He nodded, and let me clean him up and he insisted that I stayed with him. I agreed, and after I got myself cleaned up I sat up next to him on his bed.

"Come on Alex you gotta get into bed now," I said as I helped him lay down. The truth was I didn't want to say anything too stupid, and I guess you could say Alex tended to word vomit when he was drunk.

Alex groaned and tugged my arms that were helping him lay down with both of his hands. He looked at me for a second, and sat up again, and looked deep into my eyes. I was frozen, and I had no idea what was going on. I thought it was a joke, but I realized it wasn't when his lips were pressed on mine. He smiled when he pulled away, and laid down and passed out after that. I was in absolute shock. This was one of the first times I wasn't wasted and was aware of what was happening. I had no idea if it was a drunken mistake, or if he had feelings for me. It upset me a little bit because there was a good chance he wouldn't remember any of this and all I wanted was to kiss him again. I laid down next to him, and he nuzzled up next to me and cuddled. Tears filled my eyes because I didn't know if I would rather lose my best friend or have a boyfriend.