Painful Struggles

You Don't Have To Pretend

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Dad: I'm back!!!

Selena's POV

Oh great he's back..

Before I could even say anything he beat me up really hard.

Dad: All the couples were there, and I was there without a woman, I could have been there with your mum, but you know why I couldn't, BECAUSE YOU F*CKING KILLED HER, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE, YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE, I HATE SO MUCH, YOU'RE JUST A MISTAKE!

And the punches kept coming until he went upstairs and I think he went to sleep, he's never said I was a mistake, so that had an effect on me. I start make him dinner, and then go do my homework. 

When I finished I went back down and got his plate out and a glass of water with some cutlery.

He comes down and I give him the food, I just made pasta.

He finished it all, so I'm guessing it was good, and then out of nowhere he threw his plate at me, it just missed by like a millimetre. 

Dad: THAT WAS AWFUL, DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW TO COOK? YOU COULD HAVE MADE SOMETHING THAT ACTUALLY TASTES GOOD!

He beat me up really hard and then went upstairs, again to sleep.

I get up and it actually really hurt to get up. I quickly clean up after the mess and then put on my shoes to go for a walk at 10pm, I know it's stupid, but I need fresh air. 

I quietly walk outside and take in the cold air. I go down past starbucks, and just as I was about to go back home someone grabbed me and pulled me into the alleyway.

Sh*t I'm gonna die!

Stranger: What's a pretty girl like you doing out at this time of night?

I couldn't speak because his dirty hand was on my mouth...

He pushed me up against the wall

Stranger: We're just going to have some fun okay?

OH MY GOD... RAPE ALERT, HE'S GOING TO RAPE ME!

I tried to get out of his grip and yell for help but he put his mouth on mine.

Stranger: Say anything and I will kill you.

I stayed quiet as he started kissing my neck

Sel: No please stop, no please! Stop!

He put his hand down my pants and touching me in places I didn't want to be touched. I tried to get out of it, I even kicked him.

Sel: PLEASE STOP!!! HELP ME SOMEONE!!!

Again he put his mouth on mine as he touched me down there, I didn't like it, there is no way in hell that I'm going to let him take my virginity away.

He started scratching me down there and being extremely rough, and it hurt a lot, I started crying as he kissed me and kept pushing me into the wall.

Stranger: You're just so sexy.

Sel: No please stop.

He pulled down his pants and then pulled mine down to. OH MY GOD NO!

Sel: NO YOU HAVE TO STOP! PLEASE, YOU CAN'T DO THIS!

He ripped my shirt off literally, I tried struggling out, but his grip was to tight.

He took his boxers off, and I looked away, crying for help.