Painful Struggles

Epilogue

Sel's POV

It's been 5 years since Harry proposed to me and let me tell you, it's been probably the best 5 years of my life. Everyone has just been so happy. 

Today, I'm going to go to the cemetery and visit my mum, this is my first time ever going to see her, and I'm really nervous actually. But I haven't actually told Harry or any of the others that I'm doing this because this is something that I have to do alone and I don't really want to tell them all about it, maybe after I might tell Harry.

I get the address down of the cemetery, grab my bag and make my way out.

Harry: Hey where are you off to, you look very pretty?

I was wearing a white crop top with cream coloured loose pants and black heels. 

Sel: I'm just going to go have a look at a pair of shoes that I ordered into the store, that just arrived.

Harry: Okay, did you want me to come with you love?

Sel: Nah it's okay, I won't be too long.

Harry: Are you taking my Range Rover or your BMW?

Sel: My BMW of course.

Harry just chuckles, last week he bought me a BMW X5 for my 27th Birthday. Our whole group was now 26/27 which was good cause we all graduated from uni and what not together. We still all lived together though.

I say bye to Harry,  give him a quick peck on the lips and head off to the cemetery. I wasn't actually lying to Harry though, I do need to pick up shoes for this party that all of us are going to tomorrow night.

I make my way into the cemetery car park and park my car. Do I really want to do this? I mean I don't even know my mum, she died giving birth to me. No, I'm going to do this. She would be proud of me and so would Harry.

I walk out and find her cemetery but there were fresh flowers placed there already. I get a rose that I picked from our garden and placed it next to the bunch of daises on her grave.

Marie Elizabeth Gomez

Loved as a Mother, Wife and a Beautiful Dancer

1960-1993

She was only 33 years old. I loved watching videos of her dance, it's like her body is a slinky, in a good way, cause it's just that flexible. I quit my job doing dancing and singing gigs, I want to teach kids how to dance just like my mum did. 

I wonder who put those flowers there, I look around but I don't see anyone there. I sit down in front of grave.

Sel: Hi mum, I'm your daughter, Selena Marie Styles. I'm 27 years old and I'm married to Harry Edward Styles, you actually have 2 grandchildren; a 2 year old girl Amy and a 4 year old boy, Justin. I don't know why I am talking so formally to you but I just feel so guilty because your death is my fault. You died giving birth to me and dad hated me because of that. He abused me physically and verbally everyday. He would only say how he wished it were me dead instead of you. He never spoke anything about your history with him nor did he speak of any memories that he cherished of you. He never spoke to me of how you both met, what you wedding was like, how he proposed. He just beat me to pulp mum, I cut myself, no one wanted me at school. All the teachers hated me and would disadvantage me for everything. The only teacher who was actually nice to me was Mrs Bell, she actually treated me like a human. I had no friends either mum, I was so alone, dad wouldn't even feed me or provide me with food, I would only cook for him. But then Harry, Louis, Niall, Eleanor and Demi came along. They were the new kids that came to the school. I thought that they got paid to talk to me or that they only felt sympathy, which at the start I think they did. Harry would always continuously try to talk to me and that made me actually feel wanted. We actually became pretty close mum, he even took me out and picked me up after work at Starbucks. It was really nice. He was like my hero, he called the cops on dad, that was the day that I got accepted into 2 universities on full dance scholarships. When the cops took him that night, all this weight of my shoulders was gone, it just felt surreal. And then there was Prom, that was a magical and well yeah Harry has just been just a magical person himself. I feel as if  I would never have met him, well then I probably would've been up there with you right now. I really wish you were here mum, to witness and be there to celebrate my wedding, to be there for the birth of your grandchildren and just to meet Harry and for me to be able to introduce him to you and have that stressful moment of you approving him like all the teens do. I know that I never had a bond with you mum, but I miss you so much. I love you heaps, but I'm going to go now cause Harry will start worrying on where I am. Bye mum.

I start walking back to my car when I feel someone embrace me from behind.

Harry: I know that was your private time, but I couldn't let you leave the house. I knew something was up and it just didn't feel right to let you go alone.

Sel: I love you Harry, you know that

Harry: I love you too.

THE END