just you {lumity sports au}

sixteen

Amity p.o.v

on my drive home i thought about Luz's words. was i really going to just spill out all my feelings to her tonight? i mean, she wanted me to tell her what's going on but it's still odd. i already trauma dumped on her once. so i think it's weird she actively just wants me to. the only people i complain about my problems to is the twins, and i still don't do that a lot either. i don't know, maybe i'm just not used to it with other people.

i pull up into the driveway and get out of my car, locking it and heading inside. i greet some of the staff as i pass by and make my way to the hallway my room is in. i noticed my door cracked open and my heart dropped. please don't tell me my mother went into my room. i practically pray as i make my way to my door. i slowly reach out for the handle and hesitate before grabbing it and opening my door.

the sick in my stomach was instantly relieved when i saw Ed and Em playing with Ghost on the floor. i take a deep breath as the both snap their heads to the door i was at. "you guys scared me so much. i thought you were mom in my room." i say as i put a hand over my chest.

"sorry. we just feel bad that Ghost is pent up in this room all the time." Ed states as he grabs a cat toy and throws it for Ghost. "it sucks that mom doesn't want her out of the room at all."

"i know, i don't like her being stuck in here either." i agree as i close the door behind me and sit on my bed.

"how was school and practice, Mittens?" Em questions as she spins herself around to face me.

"it was okay, i guess. i'm going ask to spend the weekend at Boscha's house. i had an anxiety attack at school due to my last argument with mother. i just feel like i'm walking on eggshells at this point to not piss her off." i complain while laying on my back. i was now staring at the ceiling. i hear the twins get up and sit on either side of me, then laying down with me.

"we know how you feel, Amity. before you were born we had to be the perfect ones. i just hate that it had to get passed down to you." Em mentions as she turns her head to look at me. i sigh and play with the hem of my shirt.

"i just want to be a normal teenager. i don't want to feel that everything i do is just a screw up and i'll be forever burning in hell." i explained while still fidgeting with my shirt. "i can't even like a girl without being called disgusting by person that gave birth to me. i've been wasting my youth all this time just to be what she wanted, i'm so tired of it."

"how about we break the rules for once." Ed stated while propping himself up on his elbow. me and Emira just stare at him quizzically. "mom will probably want your hair redone soon. a lot of the brown as grown out. just refuse to dye it. after you already asked to stay at Boshca's house of course. i mean, come on. you know how she is, once she already says yes she can't change her mind. 'a Blight always keeps their word'." he says while using air quotes with his freehand.

"i mean, that's not a bad idea for once Ed." Em smiles then turning to me. "what do you think?"

i sit up and run my hands through a bit of my loose hair. "that's not a bad idea. i'll be right back. also get ready to leave. i'm gonna also ask mom if we can take a trip into town." i get up and walk out of my room, taking heavy strides to go my mothers room.

i sit outside the door frozen. i seemed a bit more confident not even five minutes ago. i take a deep breath and smack the sides of my face softly to snap myself out of my trance on the door. i reach my hand and knock lightly, getting a response from my mother to come in. once i go inside i see her at her usual chair, reading a book while my dad was putting more wood into the fire. "what is it, Amity?" my mother questions as she puts down her book.