𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐬 ||𝐢𝐰𝐚𝐨𝐢||

39: lava

[new messages.]

hajime:
tooru

have u really thought them through?

your feelings?

it could just be moderate attraction

tooru:
why would i tell you how i feel

if i wasn't sure??????

iwaizumi hajime goddamnit

i like you

i like you as more than a friend

hajime:
tooru...

i just

i don't know what to say to that

tooru:
how do you feel

tell me

i've seen the way you look at me

i've felt your warmth and kindness

you've taken me to places you like

you showed me who you are

and are you going to tell me that all of that was friendly? that there were no feelings involved?

hajime:
i mean

i cant say that there were no feelings involved

but i really don't think i am the right guy for you

im just looking out for you tooru

tooru:
looking out for me?

i can decide what is good for myself

iwa please

just be honest and tell me straight on

hello?

i can see you're reading the messages

iwa

i know it's hard

and we both have been hurt

but we're good for each other

??

iwaaa

hajime:
im scared

tooru:
of what

hajime:
everything

tooru:
what do you mean

hajime:
feelings are...

hard?

they're tough

and they're scary

and it makes me feel vulnerable

and then all the thoughts come in

all the what ifs

all the possible situations

and i always think about the worst