Always, Our Secret Dream 3

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'FUCK, baby, Is that two lines?' Bryan asks as he holds the now turned over test in his large hands.

His ocean blue eyes are wide as he looks between the test and me. Our new reality started to creep in around us, turning the air thick and musty. I know I should say something but I can't. I open and close my mouth like a fish unable to find any words, let alone the right ones for a moment like this.

Maybe I should have taken the test on my own like I'd planned. If I had I would have had a moment to process the results. Been able to get my head around them without having to deal with his reaction or the look in his eyes.

I can't look at him, the emotions feel too much, almost suffocating. Instead I keep my eye lowered onto my tummy, trying to process that behind all that muscle and skin is a little wisp growing. A perfect mixture of him and me. It feels like a dream, one I've never aloes myself to dream before.

'Babe' I can hear him faintly behind the thumping in my ear drums, his voice stern and yet so far away. He's still holding the test tightly in his hands as he now watching me. No, us.

Fuck I'm an us?

I'm pregnant. We are having a baby. I'm going to be a mummy and Bryan's going to be a daddy. Our family of two is going to be a family of three.

Is it normal to feel numb when you find out news like this? My heart feels like it's going to explode within my chest. My stomach is in knots and my heads spinning. It feels like all the blood has been drained and I'm going to faint.

The sound of crashing waves and wisps of an ocean breeze tickles my senses - is this a pregnancy thing? Were not by the ocean so I know I can't actually hear the waves nor smell the ocean breeze and yet it feels so real.

'Bryan...' I whimper as my body begins to sway. My upper body feeling too heavy for my legs, oh no, this feels like it did before. Before I ended up on the kitchen floor. Blood dripping down my nose and pooling around my head.

I'm on my feet one second and then I'm falling through the air in the other. Panic racing through me as I fall through the air towards the cold hard tiles. Internally I send a thousand prayers 'please don't hurt the baby' I down want our little wisp to get hurt. Just as I'm passing the counter top nearly closer to the floor strong arms wrap around me, catching me in midair.

He pulls me to him before lifting me into his arms, carrying me out of the bathroom and into our bedroom. Placing me gently onto the bed before moving to lay down beside me. His strong muscly arms wrap tightly around my body, holding me close to him. Our body heat and scents mingling together until they become one.

'Baby?'

'Sorry' I whimper against his chest. 'I just had a dizzy moment'