Finding our Voices {Nicholas McDonald & Sam Callahan}

Chapter 9

Jess' pov

"OMG! Lauren what do you think you were doing?!" I shouted as soon as I saw her.

"I'm sorry jess I just had to have a little break" she said looking at the ground. I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug.

"Never do that to me ever again" I say as she nodded. "come one lets all go home yeah?" Everyone agreed as we got back in the car. Mum turned on the radio and Ella 'Yours' came on. That's the song that I have been workng on for my Arena audition. I started to sing the song quitely to myself as I looked out of the window think about that Nicky boy. I wonder if I will ever get to see him again? I hope so.

"Sing louder Jess" Lauren said as she smiled at me.

I started singing a bit louder so everyone in the car could hear me. I noticed mum smile at me through the mirror in the car and dad smiled and winked at me through the mirror as well. This gave me more incuragement to carry on so by now I was singing my full voice hitting the notes perfectly. once the song finished mum turned around.

"you are definitly singing that at the area" she said as she clapped her hands and her smile came from ear to ear.

"This is the song i was working on the other day" I say as I looked back at my mum.

"Well i think, no, I know you will smash that audition and get into bootcamp!" I love my mum I really do. even though sometimes I don't show it she means the world to me and I could not ask for anything better. She is always so supportive in what ever i do. thats all i could ever want.

-Back home-

"JESS!" my mum shouted from down stairs as me and Lauren were up in my room just talking.

"YESSSSS!" i shouted back.

"could you come and help me with tea please?" she said. i shouted back a yes as i told Lauren that i wouldnt be long.

Lauren's pov.

once jess went down stairs i pulled out my phone from my pocet and looked at my unread messages. one was fro Luke. oh no, i really dont want anything to do with him. I've told him this already, why cant he just leave me alone! i looked at his message and then i totally regret it.

to Lauren

meet me at the park tonight at 12.

from Luke

i dont want to meet him. to be totally honest her scares me. a lot. i sigh and lie down on jess' bed. what am i going to do now? jess cant know about him. at least not yet anyway.

-later on that night-

"goodnight girls, dont stay up too late please beacuse jess has to be at the arena tomorrow early, no later than 12" Nicole said as she walked up the stairs as Lewis had already gone up an hour before.

"i think im gonna got to be anyway because of tomorrow" jess said as she stood up and streched out her arms "you coming?"

"nah im just gonna finish watching this and then i will be up. i wont be too long" i say as i glued my eyes to the TV making sure she couldnt see any lying in my face.

"okay. dont forget to turn off the lights once you are done and lock the door" jess said as she made her way up stairs after i gave her a nod. i wated for just another half an hour until i knew that they were all asleep. i just went up the stairs to make sure everyone was fully asleep before i made my way to the park. i really didnt want to go but i had to because Luke woulnt leave me alone otherwise. i really dont want Nicole, Lewis or even jess to find out about me going becuase they will just worry even more that what they already are. its not fair on them. i have just been brought into their family and they are spending all this money on my and teating me like im a princess but when really im just another normal girl. i dont have any talets... jess always says to me that she hates it sometimes when her mum and dad treat her like a princess which is most of the time. she said that sometimes she just wishes that she is a normal girl with a normal family and not get followed around all the time but the time to make sure she is okay. like sometimes jess would come home with a mark on her arm and her mum and dad would run up to her and ask if she was pkay and who ever did it they your sue. now you know when thats taking it too far but they love her and jess couldnt ask for anything more. its isnt always easy life. i have alwaysed love the idea of having a big house and a big family but now i just think, no i dont want all that. when it was just me and my mum we loved living in a flat and growing up with my mum like any other girl and having a good time with your mother that is until she became ill and her time passed. dont get me wrong i love Nicole and Lewis its just i think sometimes they do just a little too much for me. no one actually knows what im like, not even jess. i have had a really bad past let me tell you that now and no one knows except me, my mum and Luke and i would like it to stay that way. if only Nicole knew what i was really like then she wouldnt of asked me to live with her i guess the past just has to be hiden for them as long as i can keep it.