Finding our Voices {Nicholas McDonald & Sam Callahan}

Chapter 5

Jess' pov

Lauren had been living with us for 2 days now. She looked like she was enjoying it but truthfully, she was sad on the inside. She missed her mum. Mum just got back from taking Lauren to the hospital, she came and sat next to me with an envelope.

"You have mail" she said smirking. I opened the envelope and there was a letter, I looked at the top and it said 'X factor' with a picture of all 4 judges.

"What have you done?" I said laughing slightly. She looked at me as if to say, wait and see. I read on and it said I had an audition. "Mum! I said I didn't want to audition"

"But hunny, your voice is amazing, you need to show it off" she said. "Please baby girl, for me?"

"Fine" I sighed.

"But there's a problem" she started "you have to pretend I'm not your mum"

"What?!"

"I know, but it's because the media will be all over it"

"But they already know I'm your daughter! No mum, I can't pretend. You gave birth to me and your basically asking me to pretend that that never happened?!" I raged "Well if I were to pretend. When do I get to stop pretending? Or do we have to live like that forever?"

"No, you can stop when the competition is over. If you don't want to do it, you don't have to"

"No, I want to, I just don't want to pretend that your not my mum"

"Like i Said it's not forever, and you'll still see me everyday"

"Fine!" I said. I still wasn't happy that she wanted to pretend that I wasn't her daughter. But I did want to show people I have a voice. "How's lauren?"

"Fine?" She said slightly confused. "Why?"

"I don't think she is mum. I heard her last night crying in her room. I think her mums getting worse"

"But she seems so happy" she said

"That's the thing. She acts like she is happy but really on the inside shes hurting"

"Okay well if you hear her crying again, come tell me okay?" She said and I nodded. I went up to my room and sat there with my music on, I need to find the right song.

Jess' pov.

OMG I'm freaking out what if this song isn't good enough. What if I'm not good enough?
I'm scared that my nightmare is going to come true. I don't want it to come true.

'When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me-I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand