Finding our Voices {Nicholas McDonald & Sam Callahan}

Chapter 3: you have a voice?

Jess' pov.

So my mum has just pulled Lauren out the room and I don't know why? But when she came back she didn't tell me anything about what my mum said.

After Lauren had gone home because she got a phone call off her mum I went up to my room and put on my music. I love to sing but no one knows. I don't really like to tell people about it but someday I will find my voice and let it out. After singing about and messing on my phone I got into the shower and had a nice relaxing shower. I let the really hot water fall down my back as I sang along to my favourite song. ED Sheeran Lego house. After the song on repeat 100 times I had finished in the shower and dried off and got into my PJs. I went back into my room and put on a film. I wonder what Lauren is doing?

To Lauren

Hi Lauren wanna do something tomorrow? X

From Jessy.

10 minuets had past and then my phone beeped.

To Jessy

Yeah of course I will come to yours for 10am? X

From Lauren.

To Lauren

That's perfect! See you tomorrow! X

From Jessy.

After that I went to sleep.

I stepped onto the X-Factor stage with my microphone in my hand ready to sing for the judges. I sang my heart out trying my very best to keep my confidence up.

Gary: you were descrace full that was horrible.

Mum: I hated it I can't believe my own girl can't carry one single note

Sharon: no no no no!

Louis: that was horrible you were terrible.

I woke up with sweat running down my head trying not to cry. I lay back down thinking about that that what if that happenes when I do find my voice and sing I front of people. Would my own mum really say something like that to me? This is why I'm so scared to sing ba use of what people might say about me. Plus all the hate I would get. But and then all the amazing fans that would support me. I don't know it's just so hard for me so chooses maybe Lauren can help me tomorrow

Lauren's pov

"Well?" Nicole said. I was slightly annoyed at jess for telling Nicole.

"I- um- I don't know?"

"I understand you might be scared, but its for the best, you can't spend everyday after school going to the hospital. I'll take you to see your mum whenever you want. But I don't want you staying the night in hospital." Nicole said in a caring tone

"Wait how much did Jess tell you?"

"Everything" she said "you should've told me about your mum Lauren. I could've helped"

"I told Jess not to tell anyone though"

"Don't be mad at Jess, I asked her, I noticed a change in you, all of a sudden you went from this fun and bubbly 15 year old to an emotional and broken girl" she stated. I guess it was quite true what she was saying. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I ignored it.

"Its just... Well I guess everything's been building up and then to have to go into school everyday and put on a brave face, while people are bitching about me to there friends, my mums dying and there's nothing I can do to stop it"

"Oh hunnie, don't say that"

"But its true" I cried.

"Come here" she said and hugged me tightly as I cried into her arms.

"Nicole" I said. She released me from the hug and I sniffed.

"Yes?"

"You're a judge on x factor again this year, aren't you?"

"Yeah, but you can't tell anyone yet okay?" She said and I nodded

"I think you should get Jess audition."

"I've never really heard her sing before"

"Well how about I get her to sing to me and you can listen through the door?"

"Okay. How about you? Do you want to audition, I've heard you many times"she said laughing slightly. I shook my head.

"No, I couldn't sing in front of thousands of people"

"Okay. So are you gonna come and stay with us?"

"Erm do you mind if i think about it, I'll tell you tomorrow" I asked

"Yeah that's fine" she said. I got my phone out and read the text "I'm gonna go" I said standing up off the bed. "Please don't tell anyone about my mum? Not even Lewis"

"Okay, but everyones gonna find out sooner or later" she said softly, I nodded

"I know" I said then left her room and went downstairs "Jess, I'm gonna go now"

"Okay, do you want me to walk you?"

"No I'll be fine, bye" I said. Then walked back.

~the next morning~

I was getting ready to go to Jess'. I stayed the night in hospital. My mums getting sicker. She's really really ill now, the doctors told me to prepare myself. Last night I got a text from Jess. It read:

From: Jessy

Hey, mum wants to know where you are? X

I wondered why Nicole wanted to know. I replied anyway

To: Jessy

I'm at home.

Okay so that was a little lie. Big deal. Nobody would know.

I said bye to my mum, who was still asleep and made my way to Jess' house.

"Hey jess" I said when she opened the door.

"Hey" we went in and sat in her bedroom. "What did my mum want to talk to you about yesterday"

"You told her about my mum, so now she knows everything and then she asked me if i wanted to stay here"

"It was for the best, you know that don't you?" She asked. I sighed and nodded "so you said..."

"I said I'll think about it, and tell her today"

"Have you thought about it?"

"Yeah, I have positives and negatives"

"Like...."

"Like, I'd be living with use, one of them being my idol, but then id feel guilty leaving my mum"

"I'm not saying she will but, what if she gets really ill. Social services will have to get involved, its bad enough they don't know now."

"She already is really I'll the doctors told me to prepare myself"

"You have to tell my mum Lauren, and if not, I will"

"Okay"

"Your gonna tell her?" She asked shocked that I'd gave in that easily

"Yeah" I said nodding. I wasnt really

"Okay, at dinner? Just me you and my mum? My dad won't be there, he's on a stag do" great, it was all going so well.

"Fine, if I have to...." I sighed. I quickly got my phone out and texted Nicole to say that she needs to listen now. She replied seconds later. I saw her shadow on the landing. "But you have to sing for me! Right now! Or I won't tell her"

"Okay" she sighed. She put the radio on and cannonball came on. She sung the ending perfectly. I squealed excitedly, and then the door opened revealing Nicole with a massive grin on her face.