𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗘𝘂𝗽𝗵𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗮 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲.

part 32

this chapter is really really similar to the new episode :) enjoy.

RUES POV
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'call me, irresponsible.. call me unreliable-'

i was dancing in my room singing songs like there was no tomorrow. i felt extremely excited and happy, i actually for real this time got everything i've wanted and dreamed for.

naveah and i have been on good terms, we've actually been communicating more and more as the days went by. it's been about a week since we got back together. not much has happened. cassie's being weird, nate too.. naveah and i have been trying to figure out what's going on. we just can't put our finger quite on it yet.

still dancing in my room, i push off everything on the dresser and and slam the pillow on it dancing with it. i climb on top of my dresser

'that's i'm irresponsibly ... madd for youu' i sing a long with the lyrics. i dance into the kitchen making food still holding my pillow.

'irresponsibly maddd' i sing gargling the milk thats in my mouth.

'rue... are you high?'
fuck me.

was she there the whole time or.. did she literally just walk in.

'i meeeaaannn' spitting the milk out and chuckling

nowwww, as you may know i relapsed and by all means i mean i relapsed before you even knew it.

yes, while i was dating naveah.. that's besides the point. i had no intentions of staying clean of course, but for naveah i thought i could..

silly me.

this world is dark, and fucked up. and some people, just wanna find hope. any fucking where.

unfortunately, im not them.
no matter how hard you try to hide it, if you do drugs you get caught. always.

'would you be mad if i started doing weed'
gia stops chewing

'why would you start doing weed.' she says with a confused tone
'i don't know cause i have panic attacks every fucking day.'

'you're fucking selfish.' she says getting up and walking away.

'gia.. gia! it helps with my like.. anxiety and panic attacks-'

'i don't wanna talk to you bro'

'just listen for a second' i say trying to open her door before she closes it.

'rue stop!' before you knew it we starting pushing eachother back and forth. her trying to get me to stay out of her room.. me trying to get IN her room.

'get your fucking hands off me!-'
'i wasn't gonna fucking do it-'

'you're a liar, you don't give a shit about you, you don't give a shit about me! you don't even give a shit about your mama.'

'i never actually have done fucking weed okay?? it was a fucking idea i shouldn't have fucking told you. you and mom are fucking crazy.'

i say as she slams the door. i walk away rushing to my room pissed. i see a text from naveah

'i miss you my love, can't wait to see you tomorrow.' i sigh hard.

anyways. after about 40 minutes gia comes into my room.
'rue im sorry.'
she says with tears in her eyes. sitting down next to me.
'rue.. i love you.. so promise me, it's gonna be weed and nothing more.'

now, you're probably wondering what does naveah think? well ..

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4 days ago