Never Again

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Larry's POV:

Laurent was not making this easy for me. I knew why he was acting the way he was and normally it would pi$$ me off but not today. We need to get this over with so we can move on the best we can.

As I watched Laurent walk out the bathroom fully clothed my heart hurt just a little. I have always loved his physic. He is long, lean and beautifully sculptured.

His body had always amazed me. Yes I know we are twins but their is something about his body that did something to me that not even my own body did to me. At times it was hard to be so close to him and not have the urge to touch him, especially when we were in public.

We stayed quiet just staring at each other until Laurent cleared his throat and started to ask me questions.

'Larry what is it exactly that "we" need to talk about'? He asked sounding a little exhausted.

'Laurent we need to talk everything over that has happened in the last five months between us so we can move on'. I told him softly as I watched his body go stiff. I knew this was a conversation he has dreaded but it needs to be done.

Laurent walked out his room and back into the living room area of his hotel room and sat on the furthest chair from the other furniture, (pretty sure it was because he wanted no chance for me to sit next him) I shrugged and sat on the small love seat getting comfortable before I started talking.

I wanted to make sure he was as comfortable as possible before I explained everything to him and give him a chance to talk.

'First Laurent you have to know that I love you more than anyone else. You are my everything that will nver change. I know I hurt you when I broke things off between us but it needed to be done'. 'Eventually we will start a family and have babies with either our girlfriend or maybe a wife.' As soon as I said wife he scoffed at me. I knew he thought I was talking about "her" but I'm not. Yes we have a toxic on and off relationship for the past several years but I wasn't referring to her. I was just talking about females in general. I waited for him to say something but after a minute or two without a word from him I continued to explain to him.

'Don't scoff at me Laurent, you yourself has said it several times over the years that you can't wait to have your own babies and a family'. 'Besides I'm not talking about settling down any time soon and starting a family, I'm talking about the future which neither of us could have if we would have stayed in our relationship'. I stared him in the eyes as I finished speaking. He took a couple deep breaths before speaking to me.

'What ever Larry it has always been about you'. 'Not once did you stop and think about me when you decided to break up with me, just because you want "a real" relationship'. 'I don't know how much more real of a relationship you are looking for'. 'We had been everything to each other, (well you were my everything) until you just decided it was best for the both of us'. 'But truth is it was an easy way out for you'. He told me slightly angry. I just stared at him after he spoke. How can he ever think he isn't my everything? How can he truly believe that?

'Laurent' I began to explain to him but he cut me off.

'No Larry, it's the truth and no matter what you want to try and say you yourself know it is true'. 'Remember you can lie to yourself, but you cannot lie to me, so keep your fake explanation and let's move on'. 'You go have your family and more babies (maybe this time you will stay with your baby mama) and I'll go and do what ever it is that I want to do also'. 'We will work as Les Twins just like before except we won't be as close as before'. 'We are brothers so let's act like it'. He gritted out before he stopped speaking breathing heavily. I knew he was trying not to cry in front of me. Laurent is very strong except when it comes to conflict in his relationships. He tries to keep everything bottled up and when he starts dancing the emotions he had kept inside his self starts to flow out of him. Sometimes it works other times he's still full of unexpressed emotions.

I watched as Laurent got up and walked towards his hotel room door. Puzzled at his actions until he told me it was time for me to leave. I just stared at him not blinking trying to understand why he is kicking me out his room. We are not done talking but he does not seem to care.

Sighing deeply I walked next to him getting ready to leave his room.

'Okay Laurent, okay I guess I'll see you a the workshop'. I told him quietly. After leaving his room and Laurent closing the door in my face I walked sadly with my head hanging low to my room. Once inside I sighed broken heartedly, heading to the bathroom to take a much needed shower. I feel so defeated and hurt. I wanted to talk more about us but Laurent didn't want to hear any more from me. Yes I understand I brought this upon myself and not only did I hurt Laurent but also myself, but I truly feel this is for the best for the both of us.

I was hoping to let Laurent know it was the hardest decision I had ever made, and looking back at our heartache, (more Laurent's than mine) I would most likely not broken things off between us. The arrangement we made with ourselves when it came to us being together while we had our girlfits around worked for more than twenty years.

Why did I have to hurt the only person I love more than anyone else in this world, besides my princess Lilo?