Never Again

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Larry's POV:

I finally got out my car and headed back inside mami's house.

I hated feeling defeated.

I hated feeling lonely.

But what I hated the most was seeing the hurt in Laurent's eyes and our distance.

As I walked into the kitchen to find mami cooking her lunch before she headed off to work I asked her where Laurent was.

'Mami where's Laurent'? I asked.

'Downstairs'. She said sighing.

F**K...

I gritted out under my breath.

If Laurent was downstairs that meant he was going to dance till either his knee gave out or he did his self.

When Laurent is in this kind of mood it's best to leave him alone for awhile. And any other time I normally would let him dance through his feelings, but not this time.

I quietly walked downstairs to find Laurent slumped over the shelf looking as defeated as I feel.

I wanted to walk up behind him and hold him in my arms to just feel him as close to me as possible, but I chose to stay standing where I currently am after hearing Laurent mumble something under his breath.

I am positive he was mumbling something about me, but because I was to far away I couldn't hear him clearly.

I waited awhile to hear if he was going to say anything else, but after about five minutes of him not talking or moving I walked behing him and wrapped my arms around him burying my face in his neck.

Laurent tensed instantly but then slowly ease up the tighter I held him.

'Laurent'. I said not really wanting to say anything really. I just wanted to hold him.

'Laurent'. I said again feeling him move in my arms wrapping me in his arms.

'Laurent for every tear I made you cry I am going to make it up to you'. 'I promise'. I mumbled out against his neck.

I heard him sniffling and I knew instantly he had been crying.

My heart hurt hearing him cry quietly.

'My soul'. I called him holding even tighter to me if that is even possible.

"I know Larry". He muffled.

'No Laurent not this time'. I told him firmly.

Because no it is not okay. Every tear that fell from his beautiful eyes because of me was not okay.

Laurent is my everything and I should not have done anything to hurt him even if it was unintentional.

"It's okay Larry". Laurent said more firmly.

"We both did this Larry". Laurent said sternly. I shook my head disagreeing with him.

Most of everything that we had gone through these last few months was because of me.

I chose to start a sexual relationship with him when we were younger.

I am also the one that chose to end our relationship without even thinking of the pain that it would cause Laurent because it.

'I love you more than you will ever know Laurent'. 'You have always had my heart'. I told him kissing the top of his head.

Laurent snuggled closer to me, burying his face in my chest. We just sat or rather stood there for however long we did in silence until mami called us to let us know she was leaving for work and that there was lunch on the table for us.

I hollard out okay and then continued holding Laurent tightly against myself till he stood up and unwrapped his arms from around me.

Staring at the one person who can bring me to my knees in a heartbeat smile at me with one of his heart stopping, insides melting smiles.

Laurent has always been a beautiful man.

More beautiful than those men in Hollywood or on and in those magazines.

'Baby let's go eat'. I told Laurent pulling him up as I stepped back so he could walk ahead of me.

"Not hungry". Was his reply.

'Okay baby'. I answered softly.

'What do you want to do then'? I asked him softly.

"Cuddle". He said.

I laughed lighly and agreed with his request.

'Okay let's go'. I said pulling him out of the room and up the stairs to either the living room or our room. I didn't care which just as long as Laurent was happy.

A knock on the front door stopped us both in our tracks. I felt Laurent becoming tense beside me. I knew what he was thinking, but no today, today is all about him. I do not plan on hanging with our friends or them hang out here.

I told Laurent to choose a room so we could cuddle while I answered the door. Laurent just nodded his head and began walking up the stairs towards our room. The knocks on the front door increased and reluctantly I finally answered it.

I sighed at the person on the other side of the door.

Thank goodness it's just a delivery.

After taking the packages and signing for them I closed and locked the door. I walked around and made sure mami's food she left us was in the fridge, we can eat that later.

Double checking everything is closed and locked up I headed up the stairs towards our room.

Laurent was sprawled across my bed snuggled up with my pillow and asleep. I stripped down to my boxers and crawled on to my bed wrapping Laurent in my arms and sighed contentedly.

"Larry"? I heard Laurent asked, saying my name. I wasn't sure if he was awake or not or was expecting an answer from me so I just hummed holding him tighter to me.

Not sure how long I just held him in my arms before I drifted happily off to sleep.

I guess or lack of contact had drained us both and we needed our sleep and recharge.

My body was humming from excitement.

A moaned slipped out my mouth before I felt the softest lips place a whisper of a kiss against them. I moan again.

I slowly opened my eyes to find Laurent placing light kisses on my naked chest and lips.

F**K...

We shouldn't.

I should stop him.

But.

F**K...