Never Again

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Laurent's POV:

Larry and I stayed at the hotel for two days without leaving our room. We ordered room service and movies and basically just laid around either in bed or on the couch in the living room area cuddling or making love.

The two days we were there felt like heaven. (my heaven.) The best part was Larry ignored his phone the first day paying all of his attention to me, on the second day he finally answered his phone because it would not stop ringing. I giggled every time he groaned when it went off, because I personally shut my phone off the moment we left our mama's house. Call me selfish but I didn't want any distractions while we were together.

I gasped after I heard Larry refusing several times to hang out with our crew, saying he had to spend time with me without anybody else. For the first time in forever I was happy, honestly happy.

My heart was so full of love for him that the moment he told me we needed to leave I was instantly crushed, my mind began to wander to unhappy territory. Wondering that the moment we would leave, we would go back to the way things were I felt nervous, anxious and hurt thinking Larry got what he wanted now it was time for us (well me) to forget everything once again.

I sighed quietly not wanting Larry to hear the sorrow in my voice as I watched him pay the room bill including all the food and movies we ordered.

I faked my smile when he was done and asked me if I was ready to go? "No". I thought but didn't voice it. I just nodded and grabbed my small bag that contained some clothes, getting ready to follow him out of the hotel.

Larry smiled grabbed my hand and we walked hand in hand, fingers intertwined  just like when we arrived, we left. I didn't react verbally, but my body temperature rose as we walked hand in hand to his car.

"What the hell". I thought.

My body was electrified, humming with happiness the way Larry is acting. But my mind wouldn't let me stay happy so I chose not to voice my questions.

'Laurent'? I heard Larry calling my name. I blinked my eyes a few times trying to bring myself fully out of my dazed state.

'Laurent are you okay'? I heard him ask before feeling his lips against my ear. A delicious shiver ran down my spine and goosebumps erupted all over my skin.

I nodded once again not trusting my voice. Larry opened the passenger door for me, I climbed in the car buckled up and waited impatiently for Larry to climb in the driver seat.

Once again Larry intertwined our fingers, I smiled but said nothing. After Larry started the car and drove down the road, he raised our hands to his lips and kissed my knuckles several times smiling at me.

I felt tears prick the back of my eyes begging to fall, but I blinked several times stopping them from falling while I stared happily at Larry.

After our brief staring contest Larry turned his eyes back towards the road and I began to stare out my window. Everything seemed to be perfect, almost to perfect and I am scared my happiness will soon be crushed once again.

'Laurent'. I heard Larry call out. I humm as my response.

'Laurent, we are gonna meet up with the crew for lunch'. 'Is that okay'? He said asked.

Wait what? Larry asked if it is okay, and not just tell me what we were gonna do? I am confused 🤔🤔🤔 he never asks.

I smiled softly at him and nodded my head. Truthfully I am nervous but like I said before I plan on enjoying him as much as he is willing to give me. With that unpleasant thought a sharp pain stabbed my heart briefly.

I was lost in thought that I didn't realize Larry had already stopped and parked the car or that he had called out my name trying to get my attention.

'Laurent, we are here'. Larry said really loudly. I shook my head and unraveled our hands and got out the car, standing by my door waiting for Larry to get out. Once he did, he walked towards the restaurant and I followed behind him.

My heart race ninety miles a second and my head buzzed. I wasn't sure why I was feeling this way all of a sudden but kept it to myself.

We reached out table after locating our crew. Drinks were already on the table waiting for us. I sat down and started greeting our friends. Everything felt out a place, foreign it had a feeling of robotic  motion. I faked my smile and my laugh, something I had perfected over the years. Something no one (except of course Larry) knew was fake.

Lunch lasted what felt like forever till Larry said that he and I had somewhere else to be and that we needed to leave. At first I was shocked but just brushed it off. Like I said Larry always made plans without informing me till the last minute.

I bid my goodbye's to our crew with a promise to hang out later today or whenever Larry and I was doing whatever it was he had already planned for us, and followed Larry out of the restaurant to his car. Larry had a look like he wanted to say or ask me something but didn't. I just shrugged and got into the car buckled up and waited for him to get inside his self.

'Laurent'. Larry called me. I turned my head and just stared at him and waited for him to say whatever it is.

'Laurent, are you okay'? He asked. This time I was able to answer him.

"Yes Larry". "I'm just thinking, that's all". I told him honestly.

'No Laurent, you are not okay, I seen the fake smiles and I heard your fake laugh'. 'What is wrong'? He said asked. I stared at him for a moment before answering him.

"I'm nervous Larry". "We have gotten extremely close the last couple of days, and I'm just waiting for you to drop me again". I said the last part barely over a whisper afraid to upset him.

'Don't Laurent'. 'Everything will be the same'. He said. My heart sank instantly.

Unable to say anything else I nodded my head and stared out the window trying not to cry. I knew it was to good to be true.