Never Again

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Larry's POV:

Laurent and I spent three days locked up in our hotel room living off room service and pretty much nothing else.

We made love more times than I could count and we ended our evening cuddled up together naked in our bed.

And even though everything has been perfect I feel as though something is missing.

Laurent has mentioned a few times that whenever we spend time together it's like the first time and to be honest it does feel that way. But also at times it feels stationary, how do I tell Laurent I crave more without making him feel as though he's not enough?

I watched as Laurent dried off before he got dressed. I knew from how slowly he was drying off he was upset we were checking out of our room today.

Like him I don't want to leave either but we have commitments that we cannot postpone any longer and a life outside this hotel room.

Sighing softly in hopes that Laurent doesn't hear me.

I got off the bed and began to get dressed myself.

After getting fully dressed I decided it was time I talk to Laurent about my concerns and also about my feelings.

Sighing once again, this time a little more loudly than before. I took a deep breath and started asking Laurent questions.

'Laurent can I ask you something'? I asked him nervously.

I watched as he nodded his head, pulling his shirt on.

'What are your plans for us'? I asked.

I watched as he shrugged his shoulders grabbing his wallet and phone from the night stand.

'Laurent'. I called out to him.

I hate when he gets into these kind of moods.

I heard him sigh before turning his head towards me.

'I asked you what your plans for us are'. I said slightly harshly.

I watched as he shrugged his shoulders once again and once again not really answering me.

'Seriously'? I gritted out. I didn't want to fight with him, especially not after the amazing couple of days we just shared but I need answers.

I need to know what he wants or at least what he excepts from me, from us.

"Look Larry, we have already had this discussion before". "You know exactly what I want from you, from us". "But as always you forgot, or at least you're pretending to forget". He replied angrily.

'Laurent it has always just been you and I, and I want it to always be you and I'. 'But I need to know what you expect from me once we leave here'. I told him.

"I want you promised me". He said walking out the hotel room without turning back to see if I'm even following him.

I sighed frustratingly loud and followed him closing the door behind me. I watched as he walked in front of me, his shoulders were slumped over looking like he lost someone yet he has a smiling happily as he walked.

I chose not to walk faster to catch up with him. I figured he needed this time to his self to think, because I needed this time to be able to think too.

'Laurent I'll check us out if you want to meet me in the restaurant'. I told him as we exited the elevator.

He nodded his head walking towards the restaurant abd I walked towards the receptionist to return the room key and finish checking us out.

After paying for the room and our room service bill I thanked the receptionist and walked towards the restaurant in search of my Laurent.

Entering the restaurant I noticed Laurent right away. Helps being taller than most everyone else in the room. I chuckled and walked towards his table.

'Have you decided what you wanted to eat'? I asked him as soon as I reached his table.

"No" "I haven't even looked at the menu". He replied. I nodded my head taking a seat across from him.

'Laurent I want to make you happy always, and lately it seems as I haven't been doing that except for the last few days, but I want to'. 'I just don't want to make you happy while we are making love'. 'I want to be able to make you happy outside the bedroom'. I explained to him taking a deep breath.

"I want what everyone wants Larry". "I want to be showed I'm loved outside the bedroom". "I want to have a family, babies one day". "I want someone to call me theirs". "I want someone to crave for me as much as I crave them". Laurent said quietly.

I sat across from my heart and stared at him. 

Crave him as much as he craves them? Does he not know how much I crave for him? Have I not showed him over the past few days?

'Laurent I crave you every moment of every day'. 'Did I not show you'? I said, asking him. I watched as he shock his head.

"That's not what I meant Larry". "What I meant was, even though you had shower me with your affection and love the last few days, I want that all the time". "I want the world to know I am someone's". He explained. I nodded my head understanding what he meant.

'Okay'. I replied.

We sat in a comfortable silence and ate our breakfast. After we finished Laurent offered to pay the bill and I told him I'd meet him in front of the hotel in the car.

How do I show Laurent outside the bedroom that he is my heart?

How do I show the world, Laurent is my world?

I sighed softly unlocking the car, got in and started it, but hadn't moved it yet. I felt a electric current run up my arm causing me to jump. I hadn't noticed I was lost in thought and didn't realize Laurent had gotten into the the passenger seat.

"Larry are you okay"? I heard him ask me. I nodded my head yes.

"Where to Larry". He asked me.

'I was thinking we should go back home and change our our clothes before heading off to the workshops and battles'. I told him.

'Where would you rather go'? I asked him.

"Home is fine". He said curtly. I knew by his tone and answer he wasn't ready to go home just yet. So I changed our plans.

'Actually how about we go shopping then go back to mama's house'? I asked him. I watched as he nodded his head.

'Laurent I want you to know, I promise nothing is going to change between us'. I told him grabbing his hand and interlocking our fingers.

"Okay Larry". He said squeezing my hand.

I smiled and started driving towards the nearest mall.