ROSES | IM Changkyun

Getting the Seed

Tony was about to walk away when I pulled his arm, forcing him to stop.

"T, please..at least let me know what's the job..before telling me I can't do it." I pleaded, he still about to and decided to move, when I held my grip tighter "..this could save me and finish all the bullshit in my life, please Tony.."

He just sighed deep. And exhaled the last puff from his stick as I let go of his arm.

"You know you're doing overtime for keeping me here right?" He gave me this look telling me that whatever I'll hear is something that's gonna waste my time cause I won't like it.

"I am all ears" and threw him a smile.

"Okay, kid, listen..you know our back door gigs right?..like you know..ayt?..so this is another door gig..but let's say not just a door, it's a gate..metal M-E-T-A-L metal gate..u understand what I mean?, this is a biggie, that means big money, big TROUBLE.." I'm starting to sweat just hearing the word trouble.

"Uhuh, keep talking.." I casually but nervously replied. He knows me very well, so this conversation is really keeping him uncomfortable, cause he knows how bad I am trying to stay away from any kind of scene and any shitty trouble that would come along with it.

"So we got a gig commissioned with some big guys, they need another Molly, few times a week, most likely the weekends and we'll set up..sounds easy?" he sarcastically asked, to which I nodded and he followed by a head shake..

"It's a man cave full of biggies Y/N , name the CEO, Celebrity, drug lord, mafia , whatever animal you want and they'll be there, that means you'll be seen, unless of course you don't want to be seen and blend with the rest of the girls who will be there"

I'm trying to really comprehend what he's saying but I still can't see anything so troublesome about it. I was about to say something when he stopped me.

"Na, ah ah, I know what you're thinking Y/N, we'll get to that part." I shut my mouth as I let him continue to speak.

"When I said they're biggies, it can only mean few things: 1 the games are completely confidential, 2 when there's trouble there's fight and real fight 3 when there's money trouble there's fight and there's death, 4 when there are guys there are bitches, 5 when there are bitches there's sex, drugs, and whatever dirty stuff, since you'll be a Molly you'll be their personal ledger of everything, you can get tips that's a bonus then Kwan will be with you and Eun..and some of our back door guys to facilitate the game, we get a kick from every gig we'll smoothly organize" he explained, that's alot for me to process can't lie.

"Sorry, just getting back to what you said–Kwan and Eun? They're going?" I asked

"Well, yeah you think you're the only one who knows about the gig, they confirmed first, well because the Molly wasn't originally asked for" I just nodded.

"So I am in?" I immediately said to fill the dead air.

All he can do is sigh, sigh as if he's gonna take out all the air from his chest.

"Y/N I know your reasons, but don't you think there's a different way to sort your stuff out faster than this? I am just worried as like your foster big bro..this isn't what you think it is, also remember, the people you're hiding from could be there too..one gig may end you and God knows end us too."

I feel the world falling on the top of my head again, those thoughts and fears I was running away from. I sighed deep. This is the only way, I'm gonna be careful..as much as I could.

"You said I can try to blend with the girls right?" Now Tony is really giving me that frustrated face.

"Oh God please, Y/n, you're really not giving up huh..those damn girls are prostitutes Y/n, high class tho, but still the same.. You're up for it? " He's like if you still say yes I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do with you anymore. And that's exactly what I said.

"Yeah, I can do it" with all the remaining spark of confidence in me I answered Tony, I need to try this at least, prep my head mentally for it and for fuck sake finish this shitty issues I have as soon as possible.

"Aite, kid, aite, if you insist, don't tell me I did not warn you," He raised his arms in defeat, as we both walk back inside Pitbull.

"Thanks Tony, I held his hand tight, I owe you this" I told him and smiled.

"Oh you owe me alot y/n! you can pay by staying out of trouble but i guess that's not gonna happen yet."

"Jia, will train you tomorrow, and yeah..get you a slight upgrade" he said

"Hey, watchu mean upgrade!" we just laughed and separated ways as he walked in back door and I continued to get in the pub.