ROSES | IM Changkyun

Did I say Air is Essential?

I wore my backpack and left home the usual time I leave for Pitbull. My anxiety level is on 200%, I went straight to the pub not to work but to say goodbye.

"You can't be serious right now Y/N" Tony and Jia took me in his office to discuss the situation I am going through..Jia was just about to prep for Sheikh's when I told her I am leaving.

"Exactly Y/N it can't be that bad..I mean right you're bugged, and you threw the damn tracker right?..there's no way for them to get to you anymore" Jia knows she isn't really sure with everything that's coming out from her mouth.

"Just stay with me..they can't harm you there" she continued.

I bitterly smiled ""Seriously guys, I am not here to ask for help..and this exactly is the trouble I'm bringing and God knows how much more if I don't go" then I couldn't help it my tears just ran down..without second thoughts Tony just grabbed me and gave me that big brother hug, tapping my back like hard like I am Kwan or Eun..seriously but that made me sob even more.

I hear Jia sniffing her tears away too.

"I am so sorry Y/N..we couldn't do anything.." Jia stroked my hair

By this time Tony let go of me..he held my shoulders tight as if about to scold her daughter.

"Don't die, and don't do any stupid shit..we can keep you, you know that..you can stay with me or Jia..we'll help you with anything you need..but if you won't accept our help..just be safe and be in touch with us..and again don't fucking die.." I haven't heard Tony sound so serious, nervous, worried and caring all at the same time.

Don't die..

"You can brave this through Y/N no matter what.." Jia seconded Tony and gave me a kiss on my forehead.

"We- here anytime you come back, we'll wait for you" Tony gave me a fist bump and an envelope..

"What the hell is this?" I asked but damn I know what it is..it's money..

"Just take it damnit..that's the only help we can do right now..plus consider that as your bonus and advance gratuity.." I was about to hand him the money back but he shoved my hand away..

"I can't take this T.." I said with my lips trembling..

"I'm not taking that back either..just take it and leave..it's getting darker..get a new number and call us asap when you get to where you need to go" Tony and Jia gave me a final hug before I walked myself out at the back exit heading to nowhere.

I looked at the bag with the shirt on my hand as I walked my way to get myself a cab.

This is my last desperate option.

If this doesn't work, I don't know. This can be my temporary option

Fuck..or maybe I shouldn't try asking for trouble..

My knees have its own damn mind..it won't stop fidgeting while I stare at the cab window waiting until we reach the place.

Will he even be there? It's ten minutes to nine, on the paper he said seven.

I am now nibbling on my fingernails.

I should have called the restaurant and notified them at least that i'll be there..or checked if he was even there. Right, if he's not there it just mean that he is really out of my headache list and trouble is lesser, we are not meant to see each other and i'll just have to simply leave his shirt and walk away.

But what if he's really there? Then I'll swallow my pride and worries and check my option..

Or how about –try to calm down and not overthink..just reach the damn restaurant in peace first.