ROSES | IM Changkyun

Torns are just inevitable

I had a good sleep. Constantly blocking my thoughts last night really helped me get a good sleep. But that was just momentarily, cause I know I have to face facts today. I need to call Toni and Ji about the mess that just happened.

I decided not to have breakfast. But food was inevitable cause as soon as I stepped out of my bed the room service came.

I opened an couple of inch from the door. 

"Sorry I did not ask for breakfast??" I told the hotel staff.

"Oh it was an instruction from Mr. Im" the staff politely replied. 

But of course he did. 

I just nodded and allowed him to bring the trolley of continental breakfast inside my suite.

Croissants, Bacon, Sausages, Fruits, Cheese, butter, jams, eggs, coffee, juices, and hot choco.

This can last till dinner.

I honestly do not have an appetite no matter how good these food looked. But as if there's a camera around or an invisible microphone in my head. I got a message from Kyun himself

I hope you're not just staring at your breakfast and is actually eating by now. You're welcome!

Damn. Why do I feel excited with his message?

And that was the subtle instruction to actually eat, so I did.

After eating I went ahead with my to do list.

Calling Toni and Jia.

"we're glad you're okay" T and Jia sighed after telling them I am somewhere safe.

"they must have realized you are no longer around" they explained.

"they moved fast, and literally ransacked your place, as if looking for something" T said

I was just listening to everything. How my place was messed up while scrolling all the photos they sent me. I can just exhale my frustrations, Choi just won't let this go and I know more is to come.

"But that didn't end there" Jia is almost getting choked with her words and I could easily hear my heart beating drum roll loud and fast.

"They came here.."  

"And they came in pack" Jia continued, while I gasped and bit my lips getting nervous.

"Don't worry about it tho, its all good" she tried to assure me

"No, please tell me who where there and what happened" I insisted.

there was a long pause, I am sure Toni is stopping Jia, But i continued to protest in the other line.

"Guys please, I need to know, I have to know."

I heard Toni's deep sigh, probably even breathing out some smoke from his chest.

"They came well, pretty suited..there were no bushes, they told us straight that they want you and well properly introduced themselves, Choi especially, and warned us about our gigs and Pitbull itself" he explained in frustration

"God, T, I am so sorry..just please tell them I am no longer connected with you guys" All I could do is apologize. Damn, this can't happen to T and the rest of the crew.

"Well I told them they are messing with the wrong people and barking at the wrong tree" he confidently said.

"Don't worry bout it Y/N we got this" Jia seconded.

"Just be safe, and don't come around, it's still hot here, they are eyeing on you, on us" Toni reminded me again to stay far for everyone's benefit and that includes not getting  a gig for sometime, I know that. As long as they are all safe I am willing to disappear from their sight forever.

We continued to talk for the next half an hour and then eventually bid goodbyes.

I have to get a job again, cause I need more money to leave. But how? I am back on their maps now and on their radar.

Toni said he'll get back to me if I could still go back to Sheikh's for one last gig, but I am not sure if that's a good idea at all. 

I am officially doomed one more time. And I can't be the same person who don't know what to do and wait until I am all consumed by anxiety, I have to gather myself and think straight.

I will stay in this hotel for 3 days max, pay whatever I can pay and move somewhere far then think again. Can't lie that's a mf shitty plan.

I guess that's my back up shitty plan. 

Funny how things roll up and down in blinks. One day i am in a cramped apartment getting pennies for eating and to pay rent, next thing I got this awesome job to save me from getting fucked up, then a gig to get me even more going..then back to trouble..was saved, but then was just temporary now I am heading to being fucked again.

Shit. 

It just won't go away.

I was roaming around the suit, with nothing in particular in my head. Before I knew it it's past seven.

Another ring on my door. Well that's food I guess.

And I was right.

The staff sent my dinner, steak, wine and all other things I can't afford. I just can't eat this, I feel like eating my money literally. Good for this hotel guys, they can eat the same food and get paid to work too.

Sheezz..

Oh wait..that's right..maybe I could work here..

Myung..I need to speak with Mr. Myung..or no..he may feel weird about me asking for a job here when Kyun introduced me as his assistant.

I should speak with Kyun instead. Oh God. When will I ever stop needing him.