ROSES | IM Changkyun

Days and Nights

Y/N

Three months passed..the Pitbull gang is making some pretty good money with the gig.

I was making good money.

My calculation was right. If the Sheikh gig continues, I'm three months away to reach my goal.

I never left my cramped apartment. I stayed focus and just try to earn as much as save as much as I can while living the life at the basics.

It's Thursday so I'm on my regular Pitbull duty..busy checking the inventory logging things on our system and sitting my ass for the longest time possible in the bar.

I was too focused with what I'm doing and did not even noticed Jia walking towards me behind my back.

I got a little startled when she lightly tapped my shoulder..

"Relaxxxx..it's just me.." as she chuckled..

"Hey Ji.." i greeted her while calming my chest down from that quick startling moment..

"You know that you're earning good now not to be hard on yourself right?" She continued talking while taking a beer and leaning her back by the bar.

"I'm saving all of these for something..reaaallly important.." i answered her while my eyes are still fixed on my excel shits..

"Uhuh..but a new pair of jeans won't hurt right? Or two new gap shirts?"

I just rolled my eyes at her while smiling..

I know that, and sometimes I am really tempted to get new things..but then I can't be swayed by temporary source of miracle that just landed on my face.

I will never ever have this chance again, and if the gig ends early I'll have to live with my regular pay as usual.

"I'm serious Y/N..i know this isn't permanent..but cmon..breathe..give something for yourself..treat yourself to a good restaurant..go out..hook up..i mean for fuck sake..give yourself a break..it's good to be mentally balanced and healthy.." Jia is so funningly pressed..she's been itching to tell me that I can definitely say..

"I just still can't afford that Ji..i just can't afford to waste some money.."

She exhaled deep and crossed her arms standing straight in front of me..she gave me another irritated look before twisting my swivel chair to face her..

"Hey.." i growled from being suddenly snatched away from my work..

"Listen to me Y/N..we all know that all you have is yourself..no one else..and you are fixing things now..great..you are doing just great..you're doing everything alone..you're getting there..and i wish you get there as quick as you can..so you can leave that piece of shit whatever it is that's keeping you miserable..so while all that is happening..you need to take of yourself..cause no one else will but you.." I can hear every single word she is saying despite the pub noise.

"You were drained, stuck and God knows what..nobody will punish you for breathing..for taking a day to spend money on yourself, have fun and do things you want to do..you can't let your problems eat you alive whether you're finding or working on solutions." She handed me a bottle of beer after saying that and let me go..

I thought that was something I just need to hear from someone else cause even if that same thought came across my head, it was like as if a part of me is just ditching those ideas..just because i thought my problems are bigger to take care of than myself. And I am guilty that even when I am thinking about that now, I just can't have mercy on me.

I shut my eyes hard from the pain that's crawling in me..I will never cry again for my shit.

I know Jia is still beside me as I continued to raise my bottle and drink my beer straight up.

"Don't let it beat you." She said..

"I'll take half of your shift tomorrow night..go party when we switch.."

" huh? But Tony.." I was confused, i mean that's really sweet but i know Tony won't let her..

"Don't worry bout him..i got it.." she gave me a wink..

"No Jia, I don't want to mess anything up with T..you know him.." i shook my head as I reminded her bout Tony..

"I said I got it..he knows Im gonna be there to party..we got compliments by Sheikh..so you go after half of the game and I'll cover you..no one will ever notice it..night will end and everything will be just like any of our usual nights"

I smiled bitterly as I nodded in agreement with her.

"..take advantage of this damn gig and experience everything Sheikh's got to offer.." she ended our convo by tapping my bottle with hers as she started to walk back to her back door life.

She's right.

Tomorrow night is my night..