Untamable Beast (Hunter x Hunter Killua Fanfiction)

C.1: My fairy godmother!?

This feeling never going away, always lurking inside of me. Trying to find someone to help but not having the words to speak.

I hate this, I hate it.

I just wished there was a part of me which has been in deep slumber that would just hurry and wake up so I can be someone that people don't despise.

Wishing that someone out there can see that inside I am frail and broken. Let's not forget that I am lonely.

I sighed as I jumped off a tree. Putting my hands in the pockets of my hoodie, I silently watched my surroundings. Taking in each and everyone of them. Every little detail bringing small memories with them.

I remember the words that father said this morning.

'April you are ready to become a hunter, go and say goodbye to your friends and remember the 'story'.' I sighed.

What friends am I supposed to say goodbye to? I never had the chance to make friends all I've been doing is training since I was three years old. No time for friendships nor acquaintances.

Heading to my house I went to my room. Closing the door slowly behind me. I started packing things I might need along the way. After that, I placed my backpack on my bed.

Looking through my closet I decided on going for the usual navy blue skirt, a white shirt, my black knee-long socks and my black shoes. Adjusting my blue ribbon head-band, I sighed looking at my reflection.

Taking my backpack I walked outside taking one last glance at my room. Saying a mental goodbye to it. I have a feeling that I won't be coming back again.

In the front porch father was sitting on a bench. He looked at me and smiled.

"Go and make me proud just listen to me closely. There you will see things that you've never seen before, but if you stick to what I've taught you you'll do just fine. Go make friends and learn. Never leave your friends and help them with all your will. You are a strong girl April. There are some things you'll learn about us, our family and about yourself. Don't be scared sooner or later you will find out. Just remember, when you think everything is over a new beginning starts." He hugged me one last time.

I walked from him, tugging on the hem of my shirt.

Walking slowly towards my destiny, I pondered about the little things.

Father knew where this year's exam is being held due that he was offered to be an examiner but he refused. Telling them he had other important business to do. I don't know what he is doing but he is one to be very secretive. Yes, even with his daughter.

Gazing at my surroundings I felt as if something big was around the corner, waiting to make a big entrance.

There's always been this... Thing. I really don't know how to explain it. It's like a feeling inside of me that tells me when something is right or wrong. Pushing me to do things off my comfort zone, ready to my chord of self-control. Making the ground and my feet woven up, not letting me take a step. Preventing me from choosing the path of my destiny. Each step I try to take steals all my power and strength, leaving me with a void lingering inside.

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Standing in front of the restaurant which father directed me to, I frowned.

"Strange place to hold a Hunter Exam at."

Walking inside the small restaurant I directed myself towards the chef.

"The steak combo." He looked at me and asked "Grilled or broiled?" I answered "Grilled over low flame." I smirked feeling this stupid amusement by saying that. Oh Geez I'm such a kid.